Saturday, April 30, 2005
Infection
Just catch a a movie yesterday with Sini, Yiwen and Huijing. I slack the whole day.. and I rebonded my hair.. FINALLY. It cost me 100 bucks. Worth it actually. At least it is .. 40% cheaper than the rest of the salons which i checked out.
The japanese ghost movie " Infection" suggested by Sini.. was all right. I was falling asleep though. It wasn't scary la.. So anyone who is faint-hearted may give it a try.. but people who are like me .. u might want to give it a miss.
I'm not going to any party this Sunday. In fact, I am going to MY PARTY. haha. well.. is it a must to celebrate your "big 21"? Anyway, my parents decided to organise one for me. Jus a small one.
I really don't wish to turn 21. I'm afraid of getting old. I can no longer behave like a child. I can no longer be childish or I be called ignorant or stupid. Then my mum will start saying.. " hey gal.. you are 21 yrs old .. yet you still don't know how to think.. blah blah.. " I can foresee all these..
All these while, I've been trying not to think about how to celebrate my birthday.. then again, my frens have start askin me how do i want to celebrate.. I feel blessed. Sincerely... and when they ask me.. I feel that hey.. I do have a place in their heart. Maybe.. I anti-social for very long time.. so I am rather cold-blooded.. trying to rely on my brain than my heart. I am more apathetic than before.
They always say "to love and be loved" is the greatest. But.. think, I've lose the ability to love.. or rather I am "de-sensitise".
Despite all these, I still love my family and friends. *muack*
Thursday, April 28, 2005
precious gems.
Sorry that i blog too much.. where i should be studying. Now, too bad.. jus to pass my morning time..
Yesterday, someone told me. .. " A necklance is something that can keep for a long time.. something that has got some "ji nian jia zhi".. - sorry don't know how to translate that into English. It never occurs to me to think of necklance in this manner. I am not a person who accessorise herself & willing to lavish on such items.. haha.. Well, that really strikes a chord in me actually. When i think about it.. it's quite true huh.. esp its my 21th birthday present.. something.. when i am old.. n i look back (hopefully it had not "corroded" or sth.. ).. I still remember the person who gave it to me. Of course I will.. since it is given to me by my beloved someone. Though in my heart.. I still prefer practical stuffs ya.. then again.. I can always buy for myself.. haha..
I always thought a true independent lady is someone who lavish on herself.. in terms.. of clothing, jewellery, cars.. (if possible). I strive to be someone like that. Or jus my wishful thinking?.. haha.
Well, at least there is a goal .. =) work towards it!
Good luck for my second last paper! Ciao~
Wednesday, April 27, 2005
Root of problem - BMI
I know my problem le.. these days.. whenever i pinch my stomach.. i feel so sad when.. i managed to squeeze the "tyre" around my stomach.. then.. i just feel so demoralise.. haha.. siaoz right.. haha..
But.. i know my problem le. Just 2 weeks ago, I am determined to go on diet n more rigorous exercise.. after weighin myself. n realise that my laziness really proved to be "lethal". All these while.. I've been working out hoping that by my birthday, I would be really "slim".. haiz..
Actually, I shouldn't thought of slimming down within 3 weeks. It just makes you disappointed and un motivated. I should think in the long run. hmm.. so I shall give myself 2 mths..
I am abit worried when i start my attachment, I would not have time to work out. damn..
But then.. if there is a will, there's a way. =) God Bless ..
You know wat.. according to my research and reading.. I realise that people who are really obese.. can really slim down alot.. compared to me.. E.g. If i run for half an hour.. (1 mth) I probably lose 2 kg while they can lose up to 4 kg. .. double leh.. how come huh? I haven't come across any answer yet. This is not fair lo!
Don't scold me k.. I just check out how many calories i should eat per day. And the answer is 1300 calories.. OMG. So little?.. to lose 1kg. i have to eat 500 to 1000 kcal less you know.. that means.. i can only eat 800 calories?.. impossible right? I am not going to starve myself.. I wonder is there is something wrong with e calculation.
To calculate: Take your weight in pound (roughly 1kg = 2 pounds ) divide by 2.2, times 0.9 , times 24. If you are sedantary, times 1.25, mildly active times 1.4, moderately active times 1.55.
haha.. very happy..jus bid for some thing on E-bay. Hope I get it.. haha. =)
Monday, April 25, 2005
LIfe like a box of chocolates..
Okie.. I am busy. As usual. haha..
Starting from this wk.. I will tuition every evening and it is going to last till 12 May. My last two pp coming up on this thur and next tue.. I am really bit worried for my last pp.. at the same time.. i have abit of holiday mood.. haha..
Gonna attend a bday party this comin Sunday.. Then.. mug.. for e last day.. I be free.. YEAH!! Then.. i head home for a sleep.. n wake up in e morning.. realising that it would be my bday.. * i should be glad tt at least my bday is exam-free huh.. " though I am still disgusted.. at the thought of it. How how.. should i do my hair this wk.. or next?.. Damn it la..
Went to my buddy's bday party yesterday.. hmm.. i seriously think i can't slim down by 4th may. With the whole lots of bday comin up.. cakes, cakes and more cakes.. that I HAVE TO EAT..
Huh.. this is not making me feel any better..
Why not have some things that I can look forward to..
After exams.. woo.. hoo..
1) BIG CELEBRATION .. haha..
2) NICE HAIR-CUT ! MUST!
3) SWIMMING aka TANNING (cravin.. )
4) GYM (crave for tt.. )
5) YOGA..
6) SALSA
7) MEETING UP WITH OLd FrENs
8) ATTACHMENT!!?
9) TUITIon.. sucks.. =(
10) Books.. / magazines.. my fav indulgence..
These are my favourite things.. ~
oops.. i forget one more. SHOPPING~
I shouldn be too proud .. someone praise me.. =) * thanks.. *
Saturday, April 23, 2005
Catch u..
Today is a day full of surprise. They really caught me when I am least expecting it.. Isn't this what life is about..
--------- "Happy 22nd Birthday. I've moved on." - ----
Went out with Yokechong and Bingxiang today. Had an awkward dinner.. yes. I admit that. But, hey.. I believe time heals all wounds. Some take longer.. some take shorter time. I guess you took e long route.. but.. there is light at every tunnel. Ups n downs.. LIke mike say.. w/ o down.. you won't appreciate your ups ya.. I totally agree..
Today.. I only knew about my ex-classmate's plight. Should i use the word plight. I feel very very sorry for her. Yet.. what can i do?.. Should i get involve? SHould i be busybody? I feel helpless.. in a society like this.. how much can one contribute? I feel useless at that moment. However.. if it is within my means.. I will.
all this while. I've been very selfish.. I really am. I am trying to pick up myself from e bits.. I do everything to help myself.. I have been very narcisstic? I really believe in peace of mind. I 've learn not to take that for granted. Is time that I should start caring for e ppl around me.. I've been neglecting them.. even my best fren.. haven been talkin to her lately.. is she all right? really.. i don't know. I don't even bother to find out. haiz.. wat a fren am i.. feel remorse..hmm.. well.. i shall do something about it. =)
I shall look on e bright side.
U have no control over others but yourself. Sadly to say.. many things are beyond our control. But i do believe in miracles. - =)
Friday, April 22, 2005
What do i want for Birthday?
Birthday coming.. happy?.. okie la.. i don't expect anything though.. There was one night.. i was actually thinking what I really want for my Birthday.. how do i want to celebrate... Of course.. i know.. there weren't be any big celebration.. Then.. I heard my dad.. going off to work.. at about 11pm which is my sleeping time. Out of a sudden.. i was thinkin.. actually.. I want nothing.. I only want my family to stay complete and safe and healthy.. I'll be so contented.. Isn't that wat life is about.. To achieve happiness in lIfe is not about how much you have. . but how contented you are.. I must say that with wat i have now..I am contented.
actually, to say that i have nothing on my wishlist.. is a hoax.. i have a long list.. However.. I will ask myself. must i have X to be happy? Perhaps.. not.. =)
My birthday wish is actually the same as my xmas wish..
* i really want to cut my hair.. n I AM CERTAInLY GOING TO DO IT !*
Sunday, April 17, 2005
FrEe time..
I shouldn't be blogging but. .. heck.. ve uncompleted stuff.. my revision.. hahah.. Today.. finally went out to have breakfast with my parents ever since.. my kickboxing started and i had to give tuition on Sunday morning.. =).. after tt shoppin at NTUC. .. at Redhill.. hey.. now. NTUC also have a supermart like Carrfour leh.. kekez.. i was busy puttin food inside the basket.. haha.. *grinz*
Saw Qinlei yesterday before my Kickboxing.. hey.. i realise my dearest qinlei.. is getting prettier n prettier day by day.. haha.. cant wait to see everyone..
As that day is approaching.. I don't feel excited.. but i really look forward to the last day of exam..
What can i look forward to? hmmph..
*determined to go on diet for 2 wks.. *
SAD 50th anniversary.. paCking Up.. 
Saturday, April 09, 2005
Gala Dinner at Grand Copthorne hotel
Firstly, everyone din't want to go.. but giving LayHong mummie.. face.. so we went. I am glad i did. Cause.. I really enjoy myself.. the food is good except the Yam Paste aka.. ou ni.. is too sweet. Though I am consciously on a diet.. heck.. i ate.. all e way.. haha... I even ate.. 2 slice of cake.. wow.. i don't how many rounds.. do i need to run.. haha.. but i gues.. that really is my motivation.. for e wk.. sloggin my way to melt the fats.. haha..
Everyone esp the gals.. look gorgeous.. hah.. Even.. the the normal... FBT shorts n tee. Liping. wore.. something.. very glam.. n rather .. sexy outfit.. SHe is the Bomb manz.. !! kekez.. stupid.. Sini.. still keep suanin her.. or rather flattering her la.. haha.. As for me.. i wore.. a pink halter.. n a black skirt.. which made me fall 3 times ( i mean about but not exactly) .. So.. we ate.. we very not enthu.. in the games though. .. every time that segment comes.. we just tuck into our food. haha. ..
O.. i must say.. that we are very lucky.. cos.. out of the 100 lucky draws.. we won.. the 2nd n 6th prize.. n some other prize la.. Sini.. n Aaron the luckiest of all.. who walk away with 3D 2N to Bali and a camera..woah.. my luck just ain't on my side.. Knew it damn! kekez..
The whole dinner ends.. at abt 12 am.. tis where e fun begins.. Disco.. but we were way way too tired.. after celebrating Qingyu and Pris.. Bday.. (tt acc for 1/2 of the cakes I've eaten for tt Night.. ).. Choc cake from Lana Shop.. at Greenwood.. very famous shop.. KK went all e way to buy it.. effort leh.. it was nice..
Then.. we spiltz into 2 taxis.. and headed home...
I don't know why I am so happy. Cause.. i feel that esp my table.. the old Farrago.. seems to come back. I miss it. I really do. Well.. I know.. we have to look forward.. but I really treasure the times that we had.. e times we walk to eat food.. from one station to another.... KTV.. =)
Tuesday, April 05, 2005
Buddy
I must really give a pat on my buddy's shoulder. Eh.. well done. U do me proud. I am just so lousy.. compared to u. Though i know, you still don't know about my blog yet. Some things i din't dare to tell u. Afraid that you might just give me e "stare". haha. you won't believe what I've done. But, i must say that you are much stronger than me. I just a coward la.
Yesterday, while waiting for my RM class at 230 pm. I went to have lunch with my gals - classmates. I tell you.. i seldom have lunch with gals.. cos. normally i ve lunch with rong ge or wencai n e econs guys .. This isn't the first time I mention about this. It's really different when ur "clicks" are all guys.. It's also not the first time. The last time was in JC when i have to hang out with 3 guys. .. 3 guys 1 gal. Guys are different.. They don't cling onto u.. you won't wait for you.. when u go toilet.. lunch.. but will open doors for u la.. etc.. so u just have to be independent. Don't ask me why i don't hang out with the gals.. hmm.. Bit weird la.. anyway.. my "guys" are good to me.. helping me out with tutorials.. Adeline was asking me.. " U and Wencai very compatible leh!!" .. i had a great laugh. " He got galfren liao leh.. 6 yrs liao.. " I din't say much la.. anyway.. i seldom talk about personal stuffs... with my guy frens.. I seldom ask about his gf also. I just know that he is a very independent, intelligent and helpful. Hmm.. i am just so full of praise of him. Too bad. He is taken. haha..
Always wanted to talk about my Kickboxing. I really like it and i think it is e only cardio I am forced to do.. cos.. I am just so lazy for a run. Kickboxing is really a "dis-stress" exercise. Sometimes, i imagine that I am really "boxing" an imaginary person. I never fail to any "target" in mind. haha.. But, recently, i feel that I should change my target.. haha.. feel bad. Only aiming at e "wrong" person. haha.. So, it is quite fun la.. after Kickboxing. You feel energised.. You ve taken ur "revenge" haha. .. Then.. still.. no one gets hurt in e process ya. It's all in e mind. haha..
Kickboxing is certainly one way to distress..
Saturday, April 02, 2005
sicko
I thought I be okie. Hmm.. still has that damn habit of checking my damn phone. haha.. well... I'll soon get over it. I'm not sad. Just bit lost. haha.. stupid right. aiya.. regrets huh?.. yeah.. abit. Nobody to play with me le.. haha... crazy gal.
Going to be less busy with tutorials.. but time to study for exams.. going to do well. I hope. No. I must do well. Second last chance. Just borrow two thick storybook. Was cursing myself.. while I walked out the library. Shouldn't have borrow, if not I'll get hook n..not do my work.
Just finished reading a book within a day. "The Big Love". Recently, I do not like to read thrillers. I prefer to read about gals.. being independent.. w/o love.. or rather.. about heartbroken gals.. haha.. well, now you know.. when u feel this way.. u tend to read books.. like these..
anyway.. this is one great book that really makes me laugh. I mean really laugh. The author is really explicit in describing somethings.. it is funny. perks me up.
Quote: We often goes through different stages of our life.. rather than phases.. cos.. in stages.. there is growth.. quite true isn't it?
*I really hope you will leave me alone*