Tuesday, May 30, 2006

Re-ignite E sAlsa feVer.

7:31 PM

i still went for salsa thinkin that I sure can't move my feet. After several dances.. okie la.. able to turn. and i think.. wearin something sexier.. does helps. ha. .=D

clArence came.. (xinyi was tellin me.. that clarence ask abt me.. when i was away).. ha.. i saw him.. he was in his shirt and pants la.. i ask him why he dress so nice.. he say.. becos he knew i would come today.. what crap la.. but.. was flattering..ha.. =) kekez..

i did a total of 3 dances with him.. cos.. i realised that.. i don't recognise some of the dancer anymore.. hmm.. whr are those.. e regulars? .hmm.. it was paiseh la.. cos.. he spinnin me. and one of my straps jus untie the knot by itself.. (wearin spag with two strings to tie a knot for the strap) super ma loo.. ve to tie it back myself...kekez.. spoil my dance.. sianz.

sini emailed me.. !! surprised..ha.. happy. glad.. hmm.. someone's a happy gal leh.. got some foreign guy.. gg after. i want also don ve.. ha.. =)

Gonna start work tomolo. excited.. doubt i will ve a good sleep tonight. E feeline is like pri sch.. after dec holi.. u wonder.. and excited abt gg to school.. i wonder will i feel e same way? ha.. =)

mood is gettin better.. with the care showered by my frens.. special thanx.. to those .. u know who u r ya.. =)

Sunday, May 28, 2006

Loss.

1:25 AM

This isn't the first entry of "loss". ha.. But after jetsetting for 2 weeks.. i was. It's like..I don't know what should i do.. ha.. maybe i din plan my schedule well.. ha.. It's not only that la.. there are some other things troubling me.. and maybe i do ve some free time.. it somehow "occupies" my space.. ha.. adding troubles to my troubling mind. I admit i am feelin a bit depressed now.. and I'm seriously telling myself to wake up to reality. ha..

Nah.. going to work soon.. i can't carry on like this.. I hope I'll be an workoholic. drownin my sorrows. ha.. It's like.. I don't really know what to do this few days.. to be exact. 3 days. I should rest well. I should treasure this well. I'm gonna do my salsa.. (freaking scared.. seemed like I din dance for 1 whole yr.. if I am in union.. i doubt i'll ve the guts to ask them to dance).

Feel like cryin now.. but no tears.. feel like complaining.. but to no one.. Feel like meetin sini.. but she is away in US. Feel like bashin myself up.. but too restless to do so.. what can i do? Go for a run.

I am tired of such game. flirting.. fling.. whatever. It always make me sad in e end. ha..

It's time i settle down for a down to earth guy. ha.. then again.. once again.. let me heal first. =)

Friday, May 26, 2006

TaIwan

8:40 PM

okie. after Jetsetting for almost 5 hrs, we finally reached Taiwan. Then, to our surprise, there were actually coach that will bring us to our hotel. It cost only S$7.50 = NT 135. We took the coach and reached our hotel at about 7 pm. Our hotel resides just in Hsi-men-Ting. The shopping district in Taipei. We check into our hotel before going out to do some shopping. The area looks abit like Far-east but it is open space. It was drizzling la.. cos it was quite ma fan to shop around. But, no choice lo..we just have to bear with it. We shopped till 11 pm (e last shop closes) before heading back to our hotel. But, being first timer.. we lost our way.. it was funny la.. cos it was all dark and the shops were closed. We couldn't recognise the streets too.. all look familiar and the same. We walked one big circle before finding our hotel and it took us like 15 min. We took a super long route.

On the second day, we decide to go Sun-Yet-Sun Memorial Hall before heading to the Taipei Main station ( the Taipei 101). It is very tall (right now, the tallest building in the world). The memorial hall.. nothing much to see .. But the space very big.. we saw some small children (less than 5 years old) playing football.. I think its a excursion la.. (saw a a teacher with them). Then, lookin up, we saw the tallest building and we just walked towards it..

The Taipei 101 has alot of shops in it.. those "classy" boutiques... very high-end kind. As we were a bit too early (10 am +), the shops were not open. Boutiques like Fendi, Coach, LV, Cartier.. so on..

Later, we decide to downgrade ourselves and go to the (wu fen pu) wholesalers market place at Hou pei zhan.Woah.. it is a big open area as well.. alot of small shops.. and the clothes are put into transparent bags (like a sack kind). The clothes sold there are cheaper than Hsi-men-ting. maybe by half? alot to choose from.. I was mad.. and I shopped like 8 tops and 2 bottoms.. total cost like < S$150. The tops are working tops la..except for one. We shopped till like 5 plus.. initally.. we wanted to go Shi-lin market from there.. but too tired .. in e end, we we went back to hotel.

On the third day, we went to Yang-ming shan. It was a tiring climb.. ha.. drizzling abit. We took a bus up the Yang ming shan. ha.. there were even aunties mistaken us as students (Wen hua university) which is located in Yang-ming shan. After that, we went to Dan shui and took a boat ride cost us like S$10/ person. Woah.. it was bit scary at first.. cos the boat gets further and further away from the jetty.. and when u look out, it was endless sea view.. nothing.. u don get to see any island or boats.. ha.. there was ktv on e boat la.. the aunties were belting out Hokkien (min- nan yu) songs.. while the boat goes shaky.. ha..

AFter that, we went back hotel before going to Shi-lin night market. It was very big.. there were many stalls.. alot.. alot.. we tried eating the chicken pa (very big, twice bigger than e one we ate in S'pore). We tried the oyster jian.. we tried the bubble tea... we tried the "ice-kachang" lookalike thing.. taste bit like yogurt.. by then.. we were damn full.. (we share everything la.. me n yian).. our mouths were munching non-stop when we reached the night market. WE WERE TOO FULL... so decide to walk further down to the night market shops.. it is big too.. there were many road stalls.. we din really shop around la.. just trying to enjoy e atmosphere of squeezing ha.. Finally.. get to see the "famous" shi-lin ye shi.. really an eye-opener.

On the last day, we decided not to roam around. so we just shop in Hsi-men-ting. We went to Chen ping 112. Saw this shoe.. i like but i din buy in e end.. cost like S$100 (after discount)But is really nice.. and the shoe size fits la.. after the shoe pedding. we went to the bookstore also..abit like KinoKuniya.. alot more chinese books.. i bought one chinese book. U know wat.. we manage to see Wu zhong xian (Jacky Wu).. He was doing this filming la.. lucky us.. ha.. he is short.. ha.. with a big tummy ha.. he sounds exactly like in tv also.. ha.. i film abit of him.. ha..

Very tired le.. ha.. after bloggin so much. shall upload my pics.. ha.. I enjoy this taiwan trip. It is memorable as it marks the first time i tried free and easy with Yian. We must plan our itinerary.. take the public transport.. it was fun. Getting lost (common for e first day but getting better as the days go along ha.. )

I hope my next trip will be as interesting as this one.. if not better.. where shall i go? Japan? Korea? Thailand? I give myself five years to save up for Europe trip.. =)

Sunday, May 21, 2006

Transit..

5:58 PM

Tired. Very tired. After 5 days in China.. I'm feeling the weariness in me.. We went shoppin in Shanghai.. with almost empty pockets.. ha.. Actually..i was the ATM/ banker la.. ha.. I din dare to buy so many things.. after seein my frens one by one emptyin their pockets after first 5 days in china..

The night scenery in Shanghai is beautiful as most people described.. I will certainly recommend people to take a look.. Very romantic.. ( shall post up e pics after my fren send me). But the first night i arrived in Shanghai, it was raining heavily.. the temperature drop till 15 deg celcius.. it was freezing cold.. I was in my damn shorts (make a pact with my fren to wear shorts). In the end, we brave the rain.. can u imagine wearing a shorts (beach) and a normal Tee and walk in the open area. It was a certainly an experience.

We took alot of boats la.. i think got 5 lo.. from Xi Hu (Hangzhou) to Huang Pu Jiang ( Shanghai) * i can only remember this two). ha.. beautiful scenery la.. but i like the weather.. the first few days in china.. the temperature was between 16 to 22 deg celcius.. cooling.. but not very cold.. like Genting like dat.. We ate ice-cream over thr.. ha.. quite shuang..

This is just a summary la..i think.i ve more to blog.. but i need to catch some sleep.. I just had maybe 3 hrs of sleep.. dread.. and I'm flyin off to taiwan tml noon. Just unpacked and took a shower before i start blogging (now).

Checked my email.. and realised that I've missed out alot. ha.. happy for someone.. but well.. it takes time.. it takes courage .. it takes lotsa guts.. it takes lotsa risk.. Nothing risk..nothing gain?

Saturday, May 13, 2006

I dOn feel liKe gOing

2:19 AM

Why? I would be thrIlled but i'm Not. I know that.. by e time, i return. I'll be face with the working world. Scary. Besides that.. I'm feeling a bit worried. There is something that I don't feel like letting go.. haiz..

2 months of nua-ing.. enough. I have met up with most fren.. sing 4 times ktv.. ya.. and "in love".. within this short 2 months. AFter this, what will i be going through? Will it be less exciting? I've done alot less salsa esp last month after i finish my I3. promise Xinyi that I'll be back.. Yup.

I feel that I've shifted my focus to somewhr else.. It'll be a worthless bet. ha.. I feel trapped. abit. Don't know why am i feelin this way. Feel abit cheated. Worried actually. But, nonetheless I'm almost well-prepared. ha..

having headache. Jettsettin in 7 hrs time. Waiting for a call actually. ha.. hate waiting. argh =(

well well.. no point harpin on it. shall see ya guys in 2 weeks time..

withdrawal symtoms..

Wednesday, May 10, 2006

bringing me closer

10:27 PM

I am surprised tat I am rather open-minded. hehz. my threshold is high.

fast. unbelievable. I can fathom what i want. what i did. what i am going to do..

Anyway.. I am going Overseas..enuff of this.. seems like a dream or a bubble to me.. Follow my heart? I can't. follow my brains.. it ain't working.. Trying to comprehen ur motive also. But everytime, i can't bring myself to say it.. I'm just plain lazy. Formulating my words in chinese and processing it into english.. nUtz.

Am i carrying it too far.. i like this game but am still bit cautious about it.. its like i woke up one morning.. and woah.. okie. I din know.. I had come to such conclusion. Happy? feeling a bit of euphoria now.. a bit. It's gonna to bring lotsa shitz.. i know.

Haiz.. cRap.

Let me Go.

Tuesday, May 09, 2006

12:00 AM

Together pic.. heartwarming. thanKs gals. =)

12:00 AM

BrEnda n me.. weIrd sign.. ha.

Monday, May 08, 2006

11:58 PM

YeNxin n me~

11:58 PM

Miss Q in Hot pants~

11:57 PM

dEarest sharOn --

11:56 PM

my fyp khaki~

terrible headache

9:56 AM

sleepin from 9 to 7 pm.. practically e whole day. I managed to send sini off.. woah.. cried la.. but what to do.. she has to go..ha.. hope she will really enjoy herself.. i will certainly miss talkin to her... at this time.. whr i need so much advice. .. haiz.. well well.. everyone has their own choices.. what they want to do in life.. all e best ya gal.. =) take good care hor.. btw i've not been able to view ur blog.. ha..

gonna fly off in 5 days time.. not particularly look forward. but all right la.. =P

this means tat I'm gonna work soon.. haha.. =( holi.. runnin short for me..

kk.. i'm gonna sleep.. if not.. i will not be able to get up for my morn swim..

I hope I've not make anyone unhappy out of this ..

gals.. fri night go out? holland v?

Friday, May 05, 2006

East coast

11:07 PM

1 am. What shall we go? Enuff of Mt faber after being teased by sini. Okie.. we went somewhr else. Woah.. enjoyin the sea breeze.. rather cold. very sticky also.. don know why? becos of the sea breeze? we talked.. I was abit tired. I look stoned. He saw that too.. ha.. bit tired la.. Recently.. i told him.. i had fragmented sleep.. maybe of the irregular sleeping time la.. chattin on e phone.. till like 2 to 3 am.. very tired. What the.. when u r tired.. but u still talk.. hai~ I think i just enjoy listenin him talk leh.. i don't know why. Maybe I'll soon get tired of it soon.. ha..

I think.. I have a better understandin of him now. I realised He is a very fortunate boy. Very fortunate. He is able to do what he wants.. even if it means he is very "wrong" or problematic. ha.. maybe still young la. Some people are just very fortunate la.. maybe of his family background. I know why i am attracted to him. Because he always got interesting stories to tell.. these stories ranges from his travel experiences, to his "ah beng" behaviours.. to his army life.. to his family.. his business (seldom mention) and his love experiences. I find it so AMAZING. Maybe i hope or wish to be like him.. too bad. i don't ve a very strong "kao shan" la..ha..

If you ask if i ve feeling for him, I would say that.. i still find it hard to like somebody. It's just a crush.

Actually, I don't really bother abt his background, whether he going abroad to study or what.. cos it doesn matter to me. This is just a short-lived "relationship" / fling? i don know. .. NO commitment at the moment. U need a companion. I need a bit of excitement in my life. So ya..u get what u want, and i get what i want.. FAIR.

Thursday, May 04, 2006

Birthday

8:56 PM

Actually. I had tuition scheduled on that day. Can you believe it? buT it was all right. After that, i was bit drained.. then, after some "da pan", i went out to meet Sini and HJ.

We went to Lemongrass located at e top of Heeren. Their Tom Yam is really nice. not too spicy. But, the two of them.. are really gou Yi qi.. ha.. i finish most of e food la.. cos they can't stand e spicyness ..it was all right what.. just that.. i had to use more than one servett as i need to blow my nose.. ha.. =P

in e end, i finish e soup.. eat most of the kangkong.. e chicken was nice.

AFter that, HJ had to go back first as she as drivin e next day. Me and sini went to Balcony. I ordered Margaritta? she ordered cocktail. I realised i can't hold my alcohol now.. after a few sips... i feel very "relax".. We started talkin.. abt everything. From school to family.

Talkin abt e 1st birthday (startin from uni days)..dim sum buffet to now.. me risin to OL soon.. ha.. =)

I wonder when you come back.. how much will i change? will i change at all? Maybe I end up happier or sadder? I don't know. Maybe i end up fatter or slimer? i end up with a bf? or w/o one? I end up with a kid? ha..

No la.. I know my limits. I know what i am capable of. I know e rules of the game.

I will miss my fren here. But I know that this trip will really make a diff in ur life. a chapter in ur life.

lifE is daMn short la. If you don't try, if you don't experience, if you don't rise above all doubts.. then, life would be meaningless.

I don't know.. how long this crush will last. My sis-in-law says " time will tell" . yeah. I agree.

Going holi now.. i hope this holi.. will be a chance for me to think thru what i want in life. I seemed to lose direction and focus. Maybe after e trip, i will ve an answer. Maybe u'll ve a answer also.

Wednesday, May 03, 2006

sErenade

8:24 AM

I really think I am very xing fu. maybe .. for that spilt second. We were at Mt faber.. him strummin e guitar.. i tried "playing"..ha.. realised my fingers very small.. hard to grab the chord. let's see.. C chord. 2,4,5 strings on 1st 3 fragments. ha..

He tried playin alot of songs.. hmm.. singing most of them..ha.. he has got wide range of voice.. can sing very good falsetto. kekez.. We tried singing <>.. ha..i so paiseh. but i tried singing la.. very high notes. hai~

U really makes me feel young again. Thank you for this early prezzie.. =)

Tuesday, May 02, 2006

FuNNy. tHat'S liFe

6:49 PM

Listening to this Jay Zhou's song. Shan Hu hai.. featured in Jay Z latest album. Nice song. I think i heard this song somewhere before. When i first listen to this song.. it was a piano piece played by you. I thought that was very nice. Today.. gonna hear the guitar version. ha.. tryin to listen on e net so as to get a idea of the whole song. Tryin to learn how to sing as well.. the female part (harmony) is really challenging.. but very nice.

I say funny becos 2 years ago.. Jay's last album which featured this song named "excuse - jie kou" is also one of my favourite song but it brings back my past memories. The first time i listen that song was on Dom's car on e day i broke up with my ex. The strange thing is that.. now.. this new song "shan hu hai" is the song.. that attract me as it is to u. Do you get what i mean? It's hard for me to describe.

2 different songs at different periods (sang by e same singer) can bring out different feelings at different stage of your life.

I have alot of questions. Again.. I toss and turn again in my bed yest night. Is it because i'm hungry or am i thinkin too much? Ax is right. I have 2 school of thoughts which is constantly battling with each other..

What makes you think that you like me?
Do you liking is enough?