Saturday, June 25, 2005
tried and tested
I decided that I shall blog about it before i forget all my thoughts.
Had an interesting day with my Farrago. Went Sakae.. listen to lotsa juicy news.. hmm.. Happy for my blur-est gal.. I really am. A long long wait .. 4 yrs.. finally.. I hope.. everything is worth it.. For him and for you. I really think you should enjoy every moment of your life. I don't believe in Forever.. Treasure everything that you have now and Time will tell. Congrats ya gal.. =)
I am not pissed. But i must admit that you are super super bo xim. Haiz.. I seriously think that you are looking for someone to occupy your night time. Cos you just wanna find some frens out.. chill out or whatever.. You are like me la. Afraid that you might be lonely.. nth to do.. zhuo bo.. so u just ask your frens out. Anyone will do. So, you do not need me. I am nice. I think i really am. But being nice doesn't mean anything.
I think I am getting to know more about you. You are really a nice person. However, cos I've been stung before. I am just trying to prove my "point" that guys are really one of a kind. I kinda feel happy yet disappointed when you all actually proven my point on my "checklist".
I just wanna make things difficult for u. I don't wanna go out anymore. Not on e day when u are free.
Tuesday, June 21, 2005
UnExpEcTeD
haiz.. bit piss off last night. Got a bad headache last night. All thanks to the stupid pillow. =(
It was further aggravated when someone told me that "limit to only 1/2 hr conversation".. wat a WEIRD logic. Then, you think i should wait for ur call .. so that you can call me as and when you wish.. =( I am not going to do so lo. Even if you free.. i not free lo.. haiz.
Damn. I had so much grievances.. so i had to turn to u. haha.. sorry hor. =) *wink* thanks.
okie. Enough of my crap.
I just wanna say that all Mothers in the world deserve our respect. My colleague today came back with a new hairstyle. She actually permed it and straighten it back again... just because.. her son couldn't adapt to her new hairstyle and cried the whole night. So, she had to go back to the salon to make her hair straight again. O manz.. If I WERE HER< I WOULDN"T BUDGE lo..
so the moral of the story is: change ur hairstyle while you are young and single. kekez.. crap!
entering a new phrase in life. Exciting but still aprehensive ..
Monday, June 20, 2005
spEEchleSs.
if u tell me that you are willing to try.. & you can accept everything about me, which includes my past.. or rather my present. I would be touched. I really need someone who can make me secure.. I do not need any Honeymoon period.. no sweet-talkings. I need someone who is really compassionate. ? . Don't ask me to explain. When i think you are.. then, you are. Then, i don't feel that coming out from you...
I am still perturbed about the whole thing. spare me.. !
Saturday, June 18, 2005
satelite dish
Watchin the big round thing turns.. not fascinating. But, it seems creepy up there. Especially I keep have that feeling that something is watchin you from behind the screen at the back of the car. Can't help feeling bit funny.. when we start talkin about FOC.. orientation. . ghost stories.. =P Though, I don't believe in ghost but then, it's just too quiet.. Enough said.
Interesting conversation. I din't know someone who is so diligent in making money. Talkin about materialistic gals..Are all Singaporeans' gals materialistic? I think most are. Just depend on the degree la.
Bit out late.. on Friday and Saturday. Wah.. Friday was a terrible night. I went out till very late.. till 5 am.. after ChinaBlack, Devils.. n wat KTV pub.. I really wonder where i got that energy from.. =)
Yesterday, went for mass song-signing training. Then, me, Sini and yiwen went to eat at Suntec.. then.. we walk around Marina Square.. went to Esplanade to rest our feet. And went to listen to the outdoor concert. Yesterday, Nick Shen from Mediacorp was performing. He has a good voice. Has a baby face. =) So, we sang along. For the next half- hour, he sang a few duets like " Tonight I celebrate my love for you". The ambience is superb. For couples especially. Wah.. power siah..
I almost tear when i listen to her sing "Fixing a broken heart". Thorougly enjoy myself during that sing-along session. And who say you need to have a partner to be able to enjoy this?
Tuesday, June 14, 2005
who doesn't wish for e best?
Just finish watching the dating show on Channel U. Reality harsh huh? I knew the girl would eventually chose the soon-to-be doctor. If I were her, I would too. Then, I am just being cynical here. I really don't know how to explain. I think i really need to change the way i speak. Seems like no one seems to understand what I am talking. Especially my dear FYP mates.. hmm. =P
Then, I am not angry la. Too tired and too blur to argue also.
Everyday, I just bitch about anything. Then, i realise that, i have a BIG problem here. I am simply not interested in guys anymore. I don't bother to look at them.. i don't ve crushes on them.. I'm just not interested. I'm just not like my fren. How come? Is there something wrong with me?
I've been feelin so peaceful recently. So peaceful that .. sometimes.. string of thoughts.. just appear out of nowhere.. as I stare blankly at my PC .. or while I am punching my holes .. while doing my regular filing. or.. even when I am just updating my recipt vouchers. But then, I will always "wake up" in time.. and turn to my fren.. and start bitchin again.
don't wanna go out with ah bengs.. rao le wo ba.. =P
wat shall I do tml? I should do my work slowly huh.. haiz.. =P
Happy Birthday gal. This is our 8 years celebrating together.. hao huai nian.. times at Boat Quay.. times. when we try to act "adults" when we are now.. May everything runs smoothly for u .. in work n life ya. Yao Xing Fu o.. =)
Saturday, June 11, 2005
strawberry w champagne
Nope. Haven tried it with champagne. But, I will try. haha.. I remember my tourguide told me to try eating strawberry with champagne. The taste is unbelievable!! Maybe.. we shall try it this coming xmas. haha.. lookin forward though.. sharon bren n jac will be gg Sydney.. wonder if they will be back in time??
Today, it's my first time joing CUrl. Well.. in e beginning, its really very messy.. with children, elders, Intellectally disabled and the HIs.. sitting everywhere.. and i have absolutely no idea.. where to go.. which group to go to.. where to stand also. But, i try to help out. I make the "first move" by helpin shihui to interpret to Elisabeth so she can gesture to the adults HIs. I wondering if being a senior will deprive shihui the chance to learn or practice?.. hmm.. sometimes.. i really think.. i really need to let them try so that they will have more chance to interact and practice their signing.. hmm.. Maybe I'm not needed. haha..
Later on, i interact with some elders and one very interesting Intellectually disabled (ID).. she goes around hugging the elders one by one and started singing.. "shi shang zhi you ma ma hao" to each individual elders... It was funny yet heartwarming.. Yiwen started sayin.. it seems that this song is quite sensitive.. I share the same sentiment. Well.. it was an innocent and sincere gesture/ act from her-ID. Later on, i realise that some of the elders actually live in the old folks condo.. - live alone.
Well .. well.. after much thought. Gal, i really think.. if you really like him.. and like his presence.. then do give him one more chance when he comes back. I suppose.. live without regrets la. But, before that, you must change your attitude.. accepts his flaws.. everyone has it. Be prepared to accept them.. after all, love is all about give and take. After you have change your perception and your attitude, enter it with an open-heart. I suppose none of you know what will happen in the future. If it really doesn't work out.. then, at least you have try your best.. and no regrets.
aiya. don't know la. Just my two-cents thought.
i don't know why.. recently my frens.. just like tellin me their love problems.. I'm not pissed k. But, i have no idea what to say to u. need some time to ponder. =)
Thursday, June 09, 2005
now.. i want to study..
actually. Working is not bad. Days seem to pass faster... printing n posting invoices.. entering receipts.. bankin in cheques..
But..i hate my lifestyle now. I feel very lethargic.. and i eat like a pig. Though i ate little during lunch. Tryin not to eat too much.. as i tend to feel sleepy after that.
Ok. I always wonder.. or rather envy others. who dress well when they go to school. I be like .. wah.. effort.. I should try harder also.. But, after 5 weeks of attachment.. i realise that.. for this comin 2 semsters, I am going to wear.. as "lok cok" as i can.. in tees n shorts.. cos i realise.. i cannot wear that.. when i start to work.. after i graduate..
I am going to do whatever i like..Shoppin.. running.. or do whatever.. i like.. at any time of the day.. cos i cant do it.. when i start working.
Miss my running. =(
Tuesday, June 07, 2005
aUtuMn leAves
i sang this song once.. vague memory of it.. but e tune/ melody still stays with me.. This song is even nicer when the weather starts to get bit gloomy.. =)
recently.. ever since my fren starts workin with me.. we start chatting about "m" guys.. from the time we board the transport bus.. till we alight from the bus we took back home..
Maybe.. because.. i am quite talkative nowadays.. i have no time.. to brood about my past..or rather my present.. I say everything that i want to say.. about anything.
My fren is very diff from me.. she believes in "bubble".. living in one actually.. So, to her.. everything is good.. or wonderful..she does things out of curiosity or out of fun. Actually, her personality has always been like that ever since i've known her in our primary sch. She doesn't believe in future. A very mindful person.
I am totally different. I don't believe living in a bubbles.. i still can't get over my burst bubble.. then, i should learn from her. I feel happy everyday esp going to work. Listening to her stories.. her affair... then, she will tell you what wonderful stories her "M" told her.. I can see that she is very happy.. very xin fu..
During her birthday party, I can see that. happy for her.. =) having 2 guys.. to love you at the same time. haha..
Because of her.. i start saying.. or think about Other stuffs..
my conclusion: not to think of the future.. be happy. at least for the moment. U ask me a question. I do not know how to answer you. anything is possible in this world. Right now, I do not have an answer. i guess it's stupid to pose a question when you do not know the answer. I don't ask for the sake of asking. U not know the answer as well. =)
"there is only 2 kinds of relationships. Boy uses girl and girl uses boys." how true is it..
Saturday, June 04, 2005
too busy to blog
now.. i can fully understand. why Qinlei does not have much time to blog. Working really really drains..all ur energy away. Besides working.. when you do have dinners outside.. with ur frens.. cheonging till .. 2 plus.. chillin out. till 12 plus.. u really just feel tired.. not emotionally but physically.
Last wed and thur, went to celebrate Sharon's birthday. Went to her house to eat suki yaki.. heard b4?.. it's like bbq on a tray.. with teriyaki sauce.. it was fun.. keep fillin up e tray with loads of meat.. hah.. we also had steamboat... Then.. there was a black out.. We were like Stunned.. but luckily.. it was fixed within. 15 min. We had candlelight though.. for tt 15 min.. AFter that bren, jac, sharon and me.. went to Chocco latte at Mohmad Sultan. It was my first time there. By the time i reached there, I was very tired.. still.. we went to dance for a while. I was not myself.. then.. cos.. feelin "restricted" haha.. yeah.. when u c babes around.. n u.. in ur office wear.. u jus feels so ashamed of yourself..and ur party mood.. just disappear..
Hope.. sharon enjoy herself.. "welcome to our movie club".. kekez..
My fren.. joins me.. at my company last week. It is fun to have someone.. around.. someone.. u have known for 11 years.. so.. I was tellin her that. we need to catch up.. 9 years.. (missing out).. during her one month stint at my company. Now, less busy at work.. but.. since.. i have one more person to chat with.. i don't mind.
My fren.. has been tellin me her interesting affair.. (younger guy).... though she has a bf already. hmm.. well. .. to me.. i feels that it seems.. morally wrong to do so.. but..well.. if she has already make it clear to "him" about her status.. then, i suppose it is okie. Well.. like i always say.. everyone has their own needs.. if u can't find it from here.. then.. then. u just have to find it somewhere.. =P.. despite saying all this.. i don't encourage affairs though.. I mean i am in no position to judge my fren.. or whoever.. Just all the best lo.. haha..
Some people just don't fancy stable and secure.. relationships..
some people i mean *wink*