Wednesday, April 25, 2007
Too many passwords
Passwords are supposed to keep you secure. I have tons of it.. when i started to work in a bank.
Ah.. like what Caroline said.. when you work here.. u will ve "countless" of passwords.. so best is to take down..
Then again.. I have my pay slip password.. with my new acc password.. erm.. blogger.. email, gmail.. endless.. adding on to my "burden" kekez..
Okie.. This blog is gonna be my "trash" bin.. I'm gonna say everything that I wanted to say here.. esp my work.
Stress. Still stressed. I don't know why. Everyday is a new day for me.. everyday I run my funds..
haiz.. Today had my training at Marina Mandarin HOtel.. They is like 130 odd people inside.. Can you imagine how many people they hire.. of cos the "attrition rate" is one of the hot topic ..
I am just gonna to prepare to work on May day.. on my birthday.. on this coming two weekends.. Although how much i dreaded it.. but, well.. I chose to take this up.. Big big challenge..
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Rush down to Esplanade to catch the Phantom of the opera yesterday. It was good, not fantastic though. Maybe I was tired. It's been a long time since i catched a musical.
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It's only when you really work hard, you really feel that you deserved a break. Its been my 3rd week, but seemed like I have worked for 2 months.. ha..
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Hope to be able to meet up with frens.. I'm afraid not in May.. perhaps in June..
Friday, April 20, 2007
LIfe can be so unfair
LIfe can be so unfair when you start comparing. THis is the xth time I am experiencing this..
Used to able to knock off at 6 if not 630 almost everyday.
I knock off at 1030 for the past 2 days.
Used not to work on wkend. Never actually.
I am told to stay back for 1st and last wk of every month. (Maybe for first 2 months)
Used to go on biz trip and just listen to them talking. Not contributing. No job motivation. No job satisfaction.
Deskbound in my isolated island and learning to do my own funds.
Used to able to clear my things, at least prioritise my stuffs and leave the unimportant things to tml.
I have to clear my funds by a certain timing every day.
Used to have regular lunch at 1230.
I have to go for lunch after 230.
Used talk to my colleague who is sitting by my side.
I have to sit alone with 2 others guys who are really shy or really quiet.
Used to wake up late in the morning and go home early.
I have wake up abit earlier (cos i wake up later each day) and go home late.
These are the differences in my life. ADapting. Its quite hard. I start to become very quiet..
Do my work properly.. Will this job gives my job satisfaction?
The first month is always tiring. Esp its the time of the month. No wonder i am feeling moody.
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Really thanks to my galfrens who are ever supportive.
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I think I am starting to get worried. About my life..
Starting to contribute even more to my family expenses. I can't quit for the sake of quiting.
But, I am starting to have sunday blues now..
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Some say a change of environment is always good. But, you pay a price for that.
Don't get me wrong. My colleagues are in fact nice people.. I am worried i can't do a good job..
I am worried I am too slow.. lackin in confidence..
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My birthday coming. Its a time where you face the reality that you are aging. LIke what jac said.
I think is important to keep yourself happy. That's the way you face it positively.
You can't change the environment but yourself. Be the change you want to be. Be the driver? KK said that right? Like i told "him" .. its a mental game.
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When i start comparing to what i have now and the past.. I felt that I have lost.
But, I believe that things will turn out better. =D
Lookin forward to my buddy's buffet .. =P
Sunday, April 08, 2007
too much.
When too much results in bad consequences.. Had too much coffee, too little sleep, too much shopping, too much playing, too "geI kiang".. ends up with a sore throat.
I need to start working tomoro..damn shit. I am supposed to be look amiable.. smile all day.. trying to learn as much as i could tml.. but with this damn sore throat.. its so gonna be quite "painful".
I finally went for the tree top walk in Mac reservoir yesterday with the company of ada, kk, kh and sini.. and we went for Geylang for durian. I wasn't supposed to eat.. but since its my first time joining them for "durian" session.. heck.. I shall just be forgiven.. It's wasn't that fantastic.. maybe I had sore throat.. so it din't taste as great!
The hike to the treetop was really tedious.. it was pouring very heavily.. we were drenched though we were carrying our umbrellas.. but.. as usual, its the farrago spirits.. while walking, we must be thinking.. why am i putting myself through all these.. kekez.. everyone was wet, dirty, smelly, tired but hey! we overcame it! kekez..
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I am really starting to find him interesting. I hope that he will still continue to stir my curiosity.
I find it quite interesting because normally guys would ask gals to go out for a dinner.. for a movie or something like dat.. (I don disdain that) just that.. if a guy ask me out to watch phantom of opera, visit art galleries, try learning skiing, snow-skiing .. hmm.. very good attempt!
I think that is a quite "amazing" kekez..
I shall see how we will proceed from here.. keke..
As much as I think I still ve a "stereotype" against guys.. I think I won't like my pride obstruct my happiness
if it ever comes..
My achievement for the year!
7 shoes in 2 days!
Wednesday, April 04, 2007
A long break.
What have I been doing for the past 3 days? I went for my medical check up, met my financial adviser.. a visit to the pedi/mani place.. pampering myself awhile.. went for a swim (which i regret later on.. my freckles start
to become more "ominous"). Suddenly,the thought of going for "aesthetic surgery" struck me.
Feel like doing laser to "zip" away my freckles..
Feeling guilty. I went to Watson to buy Olay's Total effects - Anti ageing product. Which is quite duh.. i should ve buy the whitening one hor.. Okie. let me be the guinea pig.. I'll try this anti-ageing.. and see if its good anot..
Gonna put my whitening mask tonight also.. =( A swim can cause so many Post-activities..
Suddenly, got a whole list of things to buy:
1) whitening products
2) scalp treatment for my hair
3) special shampoo for my hair if I go swimming
4) Hydration night repair "cream" for my face
U must think i must be very kiasu right. I scared leh.. scared of old.. scared of "crow feetS" on my face..
Feel that I must start exercising. Not for losing weight.. but for health reasons.
Got a scare this morning at 5am. And i thought its my stupid alarm on my phone.. (NOT WORKING for the WHOLE WEEK). Its my bro.
20 min later, i was in NUH. Looking frantic ( I think), the doc ask if I have any problem? "I am looking for
my brother". I am not going to blog about what really happen. But, back in the taxi, I was thinking..
I hope my bro not going to get some "terrible" illness.. If not, I am sure gonna be a deadmeat.
I was thinking quite alot while flipping the magazines and waiting for my bro to be discharged.
I think some things are predestined. Like being my brother's sister.. we are related by blood.
No matter how wrong he is, how stupid he is, what shit he gets into.. you just ve to bear with it..
I am not disappointed. I am not feeling angry.
I don't know what I should be feeling. Feeling "fortunate" that things don't turn out too bad ..
If there is god somewhere, please do knock some sense into him.