Sunday, July 29, 2007
after 4 months of grumbling..
I have never stop complaining that I'm tired ever since i jump to Citi. LIfe is meaningless churning out those reports day after day.. it helps that LH is always so crap and cheer me up abit.. Sini finally saw him last fri during a ktv session.. I didn know he can sing so well.. I "earn" a duet with him.. =P
I really had a fruitful weekend. I did nothing much.. I went with my buddy for a dinner cum movie.. watching a damn F*** up movie - Knocked up. It is a lame show.. damn crappy, vulgar.. alot of sexual scenes.. I think it is gross lo.. half way through, i actually turned to my buddy - "thinking to myself" is this R21? did we watch the wrong movie or wat? He replied, it is M18. I didn know that nowadays kids are so "privileged" now.. kekez..
ok anyway.. I am just "kuKu" lo.. kekez.. nonetheless.. enjoy my outing. Recently, I am so used to sleeping before 11 am.. i start to stone after 1030.. sorry ya.. kekez..
I managed to catch Xinyi today. Went holland v for Pho and later Yakun for her fav kaya butter toast.
O and before I forget. I must tell everyone this.. I ran on sat morning.. 3 km.. Happy happy though my leg is sore and aching .. and "u" think i will just say say only right? kekez.. Am so happy that I was so disciplined.
I will try harder this week.
Back to my meeting with Xinyi.. Was really nice to have a nice chat with her.. We talked about our busy life..what we have been busying.. what crap in our work.. I told her how shitty is my work.. how that horrible fri did to me.. leaving me with a big phobia for month end. Told her about my crush with my colleague..
And yes.. she did some counselling on me.. I feel alot alot better.. Have been so unhappy with my work.. my life.. Right now.. I have a list of things to complete.. feel so much better that i have somethign to look forward to now.. =)
List of things
1) Exercise
2) Finding a new hobby (joining True Yoga??)
3) Completing my ARmy half half marathon
4) Climb Mt kinabalu (anyone interested)
5) Start to send out resume.. switch job.. NOT AGAIN right..
6) Plan for my japan trip this dec..
7) Going for A-mei concert this nov..
8) Complete the Stan chart half marathon..
ha.. so many things.. I am so energised now.. =)
Friday, July 20, 2007
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I've not been hearing anything from Qinlei.. she has gone missing..
In fact, I have been meeting most of frens these past two weeks.. sometimes life just gets u so weary that
you ignore your friends.. I am definitely very guilty of it..
Been trying to pick up pieces of "life" that I used to have.. reading.. i still haven really exercise..
I remember one fren told me that life is so meaningless.. don feel motivated to do anything.. I couldn fathom what she was saying.. but now I totally understand. I don ve e drive to do anything.
Maybe its time to find a partner .. whom i can rely on.. count on.. to depend on.. whom i can complain about
my work.. meet me after work.. at least drag me "out of office"..
This maybe a short term measure.. but deep down i know it won't work for me in e long term..
I'll soon get sick.. and start finding new things to spice up my life..
I'm sick of me ever changing.. I don know what happen but I feel more sian after meeting my ex colleagues yesterday. One still as happy with her boyfrn.. who came along.. two as lovely dovey.. always stick together.. well.. I'm abit jealous but at the same time.. I cannot imagine myself to like her..
Biggest changes i see is Fanna.. she is more sceptical now.. I would say abit cold.. a year of work experience definitely makes her see the world in a different manner..
I would say I have changed. Esp after i changed job. Having work like a machine for a week or two..
u know your threshold.. Perhaps like him, I cannot live a life without a work life balance. ..
I can definitely earn 500 less.. but I really need a life.
Nothing can compensate me for losing my interest in having a life..
Draggin a tired body and mind.. U just want to recover and store power for the next round..
=(
Sunday, July 08, 2007
My apologies to Bren and Jac. I knew I had promise to turn up but i didn't. I overslept.
My best record ... i work till 7 am! from fri 10 am to the next morning 7am. You be thinking how did i make it right? Okie.. i almost died. I was really grumpy on fri morning because i went back at 2 am.. but somehow it gets better till like 12 midnight and ihaven start churnin my reports..
I'm glad its over. And i blatantly told my senior manager. I hope this is the first and last time for me to work like dat.. I don wish to die all over again.. When all my seniors have churn out their reports.. and I have two more reports to finish??? ah..
I know my threshold is quite high.. but this time round.. I feel miserable..
Went for my pri sch gathering, had bbq at Kelvin's house. He shifted house . just 2 houses away. It looks really good.. I was quite high because i didn hve much sleep.. but i was also high because i drank quite abit.. Kelvin brought out his "treasures".. ha.. bailey.. volka.. beer.. k.. abit is enuff to make me quite high.. ha..
Feeling bit sick now.. headaches..
Haiz.. hoping that this week will turn out better*.. =D
*he has gone for a week holiday*