Friday, July 25, 2008
Identification card
I must blog about this..
Yesterday, on my way to meeting my Anythingals.. i met Corrine? The ex wsc from clementi centre. We had a little chat before going separate ways.. well.. she said that she couldn't recognise me??!! that.. I look different everytime she sees me..
Well. that really makes my night ya..
But the most striking thing that night was when we were chilling out at Check in at Roberstson Quay.. the waiter ask for our IC.. that is really flattering i must say..
24 and people think you are under 18??? I am really pleased. Very happy.. so.. I must be more dilligent in my daily routine and my sunblock.. *I am bit lazy recently*
Was good.. we even had Canele's Macarons (big one) and tiramisu cake.. sinful.. but still happy after eating it..
was just bit worried that i might get sore throat because drinking = late nightout.. = not enough rest = sick
I can't afford to be sick. like now.
I am going Batam two weeks from now.. yeah..
It's going to be nua-ing session.. I like to nua.. but i can't really nua at home.. because watching tv is not nuaing to me.. =D
Saturday, July 19, 2008
Jealous
Okie. Sini, I am jealous.. ha.. just read your blog.. all about skii-ing.. cool.. i can imagine how excited you must be... heez..
Suddenly, I just feel that all my frens are like well-travelled. I am not.
Din't have any plans yesterday. So, I decided to go spa alone. And ya.. they ask about you, sini. I said you went NZ. After spa, i played with Husky for awhile.. he is really cute. Just cuddle on the sofa.. but the "ball" managed to make him jump out of his sofa.. so we played ball games with him for awhile.
I decided to take a walk in Haji Lane. And yup. I couldn't resist. I bought a vintage dress which cost like 99 bucks. But, I really like vintage dresses. And the sales assistant keep emphasising that it is the only piece in the shop. And that no one would wear the same as me. With this in mind, I just had to grab it. *recently, i feel like getting a tailor to tailor dresses for me* hmm..
After that, i made my way to the National LIbrary for the first time. It was a huge place. I managed to borrow some travel books for my trip to US in October.
After that I made my way home by taking bus. It was drizzling by then which is kinda good because I felt sleepy at about 10 and knocked out at 1030. I don't remember the last time i slept so early on a saturday night. Maybe it was the massage la. I have been having headaches whenever it rains.
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O I watched the Dark Knight last friday, courtesy of Minli - my ex colleague. My previous company had a movie screening and she managed to get an extra tic for me. WEll.. that show was okie.. in fact, i don't really like it.. find it too draggy.. but well Health Ledger definitely is the "star" of the movie la..
Well.. my colleague is going to get married. Am so happy for her but at the same time apprehensive. Am going to be the "usher" .. a church wedding. Cool.. I have never attended a church wedding. I really cannot imagine myself to get married. So much commitment. So much work to do. ..
" how do you know he is really the one?" " Why do you want to get married?"
"You will know."
Really??
Friday, July 11, 2008
Aching legs
This week has been refreshing. I had 4 days of good sleep.. because i slept at about 9 pm each night.. I am so happy.
Then, surprising yesterday, I went for a facial, after tat I went Union on my own. I danced for 3 hours.. woah.. My legs are damn sore after that.. but was fun.. i dance with Clarence, Chris.. and many other regulars.. phew! I was so damn giddy after 2 dances. but am happy. At least i sweat.
I hope things remain this way. And i will be happy and contented.
Well.. well.. its time to think about how to occupy my sat.. hmm.. actually one of the reason why I am so happy its because things are more or less settled and I decided to go US this october by hook or by crook.. while waiting for sini to be back from NZ. at least i have sth to look forward to.. then, perhapsi will also take a short break about 2 or 3 days of leave to KL .. probably to look for Yiwen.. at least spend the weekend there..
I so look forward to my break.. maybe maybe i will go learn diving because DAvid jioing..
So.. yeah.. many plans ahead!! I won't be bored.
Then again.. i realise that perhaps i will stay single for the next 10 years.. so it's time to do my "dreadful" financial planning for my retirement or for my senior citizens' condo.. (if I happen to still stay true to myself) .. I need to do investment le.. since i am not a disciplined saver.. i better do sth about it before i squander all on my travelling treats!
I feel so much happy than the past few weeks.. =)
Wednesday, July 09, 2008
I am not trying to be a bitch.
In fact. SometimesI think i am. Okay.. I am not bitchy in some sense.. like talking about the latest fashion trends.. where to eat. blah blah..
I think I am because I am so confused myself. Maybe one thing is right. It's only when you lose it, you start treasuring it. I decided that I am going to make a stand. That is to drop it.
I feel abit ke xi .. but I knew I had to do it. I had a discussion with several frens over the wkend. And I realised that I am the one with problem. I have a huge problem. I have a illness.
And that subconciously it overwhelmed me .. though I try to fight it.. but it seemed that I lost. I am not tat fickle minded I must say. It takes at least half a year before i start a new crush.
But, after dating a few times, I realised that guys are a disappointment. So, subconciously, I think I like them .. have crushes on them.. but they doesn't come "close" to me. I may seemed like an open book ... but I am not. There are some knots that are tied and they are deep inside me.
Unless you really mesmerised me.. or u ve some x factor.. i doubt anyone can break through it.
I tried convincing myself that I am ready. That the guy in front of me.. is of good calibre.. but I can't get through.. instead i start making you look like a fool. which is unintentional..
So, in order to lessen my "evilness".. you deserve someone good. Someone nice. Someone who truly deserves you. God bless.
my sini is flyin off to NZ in a few days time. Hey.. you have a fantastic time yeah! I will definitely miss you. And don't worry. I will distract myself.. in the meanwhile still enjoy myself. =P
Wednesday, July 02, 2008
I am having a fucking time
really.. nothing beats the word.. sorry.. meant no harm to anyone. I am just scolding a stupid pig..
sometimes when you try your best not to repeat a mistake .. it ends up making it worst.. do you ever got that "hey, you stupid idiot.. so what you done???!!! kind of feeling before? And if you were to do something wrong.. and somebody give you that idiot face.. maybe I will feel bad but i will still push half the blame to the other party.. so not tat bad..
Why am i so fucking angry. Because i am that stupid pig.
10 .. or more reasons why I am angry:
1) I repeat my mistake when i try not to do it again
2) I feel guilty
3) I feel sick
4) I feel tired and sore (from the paintball)
5) I have things that I am so fickle minded that i can't make a decision
6) I am jealous
7) I can't help but feel that I am lousy and incapable
8) I think I can't contribute to my work
9) I think I need a break but still can't decide on where, when , how?
10) My period is coming
10 or more reasons why i should cheer up
1) Because life goes on
2) Because we, human beings learn from mistakes
3) Because I still have room for improvement
4) Because I can be more meticulous
5) Because things will be better (x fingers)
... I can't think of anymore reasons..
I am half happy..