Sunday, April 27, 2008

LIttle dreams

12:20 AM

Just finish watching e last episode of I am Kim Sam Soon again on Channel U. It's still a show that I really enjoy . Especially the last part which is heartwarming.

Recently, I am bit confused. Maybe I am approcaching the the day. Maybe my period is coming (its a perfect excuse). I really felt lost. I was complaining to KH. U know.. i really seldom complain. as in complain complain. Its not about my work. It's my personal life.

Other than looking forward to plan a Bali holiday latter this year.. (might not happen because its rainy season over there). There is nothing to look forward to. Perhaps my fren going to NZ affect me abit.. well.. I really think life is too short n well.. yes.. u should do what you want esp when you are young. Unfortunately I am not able to give up what I have now.. and just go. I just have other priorities .. which are.. (that is the lost part).

Career. I seemed to be heading somewhere.. but don't know exactly. It seemed like I should move on and do more complicated stuff. which i kinda afraid and apprehensive. But, it seemed like I should value this opportunity and "grow up"!

Wanna take on more responsiblities but seriously very scared. I would rather you throw me inside and let me float. Don't let me think for a second.

Anyway. Recently i have weird thoughts. Feel like taking CFA. which I never thought of taking.. thinking of occupying myself with "work" so that I do not need to think of things that I don't want to be thinking of. That's my only objective. Which is not logical and not really wise of me.. come to think of it.

Then again. If you are still young, not attached, have plenty of time, why not?
If it value-add you. why not? If you are confident that you will study hard for it, why not?
No point studying sth that you are not exactly interested, but study for the sake of studying.. haiz.. I am in such a dilemma. Anyway, I will give a serious thought about it. AFter writing down the pros and cons, it seemed that pros will outweight the cons. Esp when my co. gonna sponsor me.. why not? Need to discuss with XY. She always give a new perspective.

"We are filling up our barrel with knowledge n experience when we are young. Because when we are old, we start to empty our barrel. And if you find that you have little or nth to empty from your barrel, you would realise how much you have lost"

I don't want to reach that stage.

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I always ponder why I have no liking for games.. any type of games. I always find them very challenging in fact, mind boggling. Not e least relaxing.
recently, I found out the reason. Quite logical. Probably I am too serious as a person. Even playing game is a serious hobby. They always say some games are idiot proof. To me, they are not. To me, I do give a serious thought. I find it draining. I can't seem to play the game well. Just like watching movie.. I nv really watching Superman, Lord of e Rings.. those blockbusters.. I prefer something that is thought provoking.. See.. even watching movie is a serious thing to me..
Haiz.. still daydreaming is the best.. haha..

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Its gonna ba an exciting week for me.. Esp next sat. I will be holding a party for 20 ++ people. Not exactly my party la. But hope everything turns out fine. My university clicks, my secondary school frens.. my beloved colleagues.. THEY WILL BE THERE.
I wish to spend a lovely night with them at Timbre. May everything turns out great! =)

Monday, April 21, 2008

A pleasant surprise

5:46 AM

I didn't expect it. I was dressed in my worst attire.. like an auntie.. (red polo tee n a black capris pants). My hair was tied back.. and i wore a purple handband..
Super unglam. That was me..

I was least expecting anything. And there he "pop" up.. I was shocked!! I was like "how come you are here??? Anyway.. This is a good surprise. Thankful n grateful for the organiser.. Its been a long while I was being surprised in a good way. We just sat down for a dinner.. as usual. He didn't ate a single thing. I think my frens were trying to make the whole conversation normal.. though I did notice that "THEY" were evesdropping when they heard sth like "O.. u do msn!!" from me..
That cheeky smile from them.. makes me embarrassed. I told myself.. I shall thou not disappoint myself.. and I did what i could.

Okay.. I told that to my colleague and she was like "woah.. u are brave". I think so too. Imagine me being a adult .. mature enough to be doing such things..

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This aside. I wanted very much for this msn. But at the same time, I am scared too.
I don't know how to explain in the blog. The feeling of waiting for sth that might not happen. The feeling of waiting is tormentuous..

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I got over this. 2 years ago. I never want to experience that again.

Sunday, April 13, 2008

Songkran Festival 2008

11:45 PM

On top of 64th level of Dome. Spectacular view with nice couches.

Tutup back to hotel. =)

The real fun begins...

The first night. We bought our "ammunition"

Hihi.. just came back from Thailand.

Came back with a fever and cough.. but i think I feel so much better when e plane touches Singapore. Homesick. I have been pondering what makes me sick.. I think it is the chocolate Martini which we had at Dome (Posh hotel lounge) and the carrot cake (from starbucks). The effect was immediately felt the very next day when i ate my breakfast and I start to feel giddy - fainting spell.

Rested a while before we headed for the Water festival a.k.a. Songkran festival. But well it was definitely an experience. I was splashed with water.. cold water.. the whole street was swarmed with many people and tourists (all armed with water guns or pails filled with clay like "mud"). We brought all "ammunitions" along .. together with a 6 litre of water.. (all thanks to ada.. who help us carry that) ha..

My face "suffered" the most. They just slap the clay like thingy on the ur face.. nothing is being spared.. ha.. it is really fun. I really think Fiona will like this.. kekez.. we didn even make it to the main street. It was too crowded. But, I think the most fun part is when we sat the Tutup back to hotel (we were too drenched and dirty to sit on taxi). Ppl will pour buckets of water when we drove past the streets.. luckily i wasn't sitting near the road pavement.. Then we also had a water-gun fight with two ang-moh on another Tutup.. They keep shooting us with water whenever we were near them.. we retaliate by pouring the bit of water left in our pail on them.. It is thrilling.

I think Thailand is really a nice place to shop. But, I am not a shopping person.

I didn't buy alot of things.. I didn't even had a thai massage. I did 2 reflexology though.. keke.. But, the Songkran festival is indeed memorable.

Woah.. I supposed this travelling fever should come to a temporary stop.

I think of going Bali this Aug/Sept.. who is interested?

Saturday, April 05, 2008

More pictures

9:01 PM

Picture at the balcony. (Early morning b4 breakfast)

Physically tired or Mentally tired?

7:58 PM

Came back almost 1 and a half week.. and I am totally battered again. Not from the trekkin trip but from a week of OT-ing.. Haven done this for a long long time.. and seriously I swear that it's just imhumane to work for 14 hours and with one hour of break for almost 2-3 days consecutively.. but in order to make my work more complete and thorough.. I had to do this.
Nvm.. this coming week is gonna get better because I have COMPLETED MY MONTHEND!!! and I AM GOING TO BANGKOK THIS FRIDAY!!

When I tot that I'm just going to die and fall and just go weak on my knees as i made my way down the mountain.. I just bear with it and just tell myself that it is just a step away. I can make it. Deep down, I was cursing though.. hah.. That was just physically painful. Mentally ta-han-able...

I swear that I really need lots of sleep which i get alot when i was up in the mountains.. because I just get very grouchy if I don't sleep well.. that would mean a vicous cycle which I totally hate.
Lack of sleep => Lack of exercise (I can't get up to do such a miserable thing) => Binge => hate shopping (no mood to shop).

U see .. these are the consequences..

Well well.. luckily this week ends pretty well as i met up with my uni clicks.. and I had my fair share of laughter.. though was bit tired. Chris was fun.. (a guy whom KH intro to my best fren).. he just went Mt KK and had a spilt. Poor thing. kekez.. I really wonder what's if with Mt KK..
Is it that difficult?

Bascially I'm quite known to be indifferent to lots of things and have quite a selective memory as I do ve very severe short term memory.. So, I am not too inquisitive to most things.. esp to things that I have no interest in.

But, if there are alot of people talking about it.. and I "happen" to know.. then I start to get bit curious.. that is why I am interested in books that people keep talking about it like recently i read "The Alchemist"... movies that are thought-provoking.. or some artistic movies.. not that I really really like them.. but I am just curious why ppl like them.. that is why I wanna take a look for myself...

I am this kind of person.
So, this theory kind of apply to Mr DM. Probably not that I like .. as in really like him.. but he exudes this shy.. reserved "aura" that makes me curious ..

I concluded that most guys that I know.. and that I do understand abit more.. I will probably not have any inclination to like him.. because he does not spark my interest anymore..

Well.. like Huimei say. "You can be so rational. Yet, you know. Love is something that can't really explain or be rational with".. How true.