Saturday, June 30, 2007
Time to relieve myself from work
It's month end. And all my frens know that I am slogging right now. One thing, Andy was right. Andy is my colleague. My ex deputy when my boss wasn't around. Things will only get better because you are seasoned to it. Well.. I guess it is true to some extent.
I can say that I am quite ok with the job. With LH. With Fiona. People do play a part in the whole work environment. Just like how i used to have Minli with me.. (ex company).
U can always consult with them, ask them if you have doubts.
Trying to steer away from my own emotions.. about him leaving. And i cried for 3 hours. For goodness sake.
Well.. my buddy did pacify me in the end. And i had quite a nice sleep. But my eyes turn puffy the next day.
I don know to be happy or not.. On thursday, he told me that maybe he will not go..
I can churn out alot of reasons for him to stay.. but somehow i didn say those words. In fact, I can really understand how he is feeling. Torn between choosing what u really want, job satisfaction? monetary benefits?
The other side may or maybe not be the best.. but I think it is really up to individual to choose.. are u more risk averse? Okie.. maybe u guys don understand what i am talking about..
It is simply hard for me to say things to make him stay. Because ultimately I do hope that he will find what he really want.. This situation makes me think about my own career path. I don have a direction.
I just go with the flow. Which is kinda bad..
Am i able to forsake my $ for things i really want to pursue? Will I feel happier this way?
Nowadays, i work quite late.. because there is endless things to clear.. I don seem to enjoy life like I used to. I shun people.. occasionally.. I am happy just stayin in office clearin my stuffs.. with him.
So, if he moves away. ... there is bound to be some emptiness..
I will to sort out my own thoughts. Because even if he doesn go this fri.. he will leave sooner or later..