Wednesday, November 30, 2005

5:34 AM

ROM photo~ Zoel n Andi~

5:29 AM

sendin Dom off~ @815 am

o shitz..

5:14 AM

gonna wash dishes very soon.. past few days.. din wash cos.. e aunties are washing.. ain't i bad?

NO la.. cos.. they can't order e food.. so they wash e dishes lo. So, i wash e cups..

Surprisingly.. i am beginning to get e hang of it.. i mean waitressin.. People are nice to me.. e cooks especially. Haha.. E cashier lady too.. and Ah choo auntie. ha.. Maybe i look baby-ish to them..

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Anyway. AS usual. I will do my routine salsa update.
I went Union Sq again.. and this time.. me n sharon dance. Hah.. with 2 guys.. which i forgot their names.. one is kang .. and e other guy whom sharon dance wif.. I am clueless. Nice chaps. Anyway, e guy that i dance wif.. lead me very SLOWlY. Not in tune wif e music though. Cos..he was teaching me some steps.. like octopus.. shoulder g***. Wah tricky siah.. I had to stick my tongue out everytime we tried the footworks. ha.. though i din see sharon dance but i think she enjoys herself. =P

Haiz.. sharon gg Bangkok soon.. no one go salsa wif me.. hmm.. just wonderin just how enthu is Chloe? ( a new found fren that we met in class) but she has to finish her exams first.

They say Tuesday for beginner. pui*.. I don't see that. Still got quite a big group of people who dance beautifully. Mostly office gals n guys.

Haiz.. my hectic wk gonna start next wk. Wish me luck siah.. I can do it! It's a battle that I must win!

Sunday, November 27, 2005

FYP, SALSA, WORK

11:32 AM

This is e summary of my winter - holiday break. I am so tired. Last time, i would be tired after giving tuition. NOw.. after 4 days of working as a part-time waitressing from 11 am to 3 pm. Rushing down to meet frens for a movie or shopping till 10pm or salsa @ Union Square. I am really surrendering myself to a good rest. Yesterday, Sharon n me went to Gallery Hotel for ADS. It was fun, an eye-opener.. with lotsa dancing. .. I din't dance. I was busy coughing.. ahem~

Was feeling hot.. maybe watchin them dance made me hot (my ears were damn hot). Maybe, I am too tired and it is a indication to tell me to go home. Anyway.. we stood there till 12 am before heading home. ha.. we watched EXOTIC DANCE (performance). It was sizzling hot. *for guys la* Gals strippin down to their bare minimum.. (nt bathing suit though) dancing and prancing around a "fortunate" guy ha.. Well, i don't think i saw e guy's pants getting bigger though.. ha..

It was absolutely seductive n sensuous performance!

Did i say i managed to dance on Friday when i dragged Sharon to accompany me to Union Square after our lessons? ha.. I did. I did a Merengue n Man-chest-a..n Salsa. It was much better than e previous dance with Zee.. This time round, I had a sense of "turning".. Not so cha-tao (block-head). Sharon did not dance though she had several invitations from e guys. Damn foot! ha.. E damn blister on her foot.. so she had to take off her high-heels and she rejected them.

I really hope my cough will subside by Tuesday n I can enjoy my Salsa this comin Tuesday. Haiz..

Yesterday, Luv n Zee taught some styling.. shakin ur butt.. I tried to imitate. But unsuccessful.

Know what. I finally saw Terence! =D Was wondering.. what happen to him? nv see him on Friday cos he only go on Wednesday or Thursday after his class. He is now in INtermediate One. ^-^

I realised that whether u dance in normal or salsa clubs. The trick to dance is e same. Just move. Just wriggle. Just shake.

Salsa is a sensuous dance.. I like watchin people salsa. E look between salsaros and salsera just make me high. Yesterday, was watchin Fi (one of the instructors) and a guy dancing. Ha. .. They are so damn Flirtatous la.. winkin at each other. Doing some hand-tricks.. ha.. It was really interesting.

E salSa fEveR is raging inSIde Me~

Friday, November 25, 2005

battling wif sore throat

9:34 AM

it has been reduced to a cough now. NOt very bad cough.

Damn.. when i had to sing ktv tml.. i had to suffer sore throat. Loss of voice. No manz... i can't.I need to work. Haiz... Went to watch Exorcism of Emily Rose. It was okie. ha.. Not so much of frightenin scenes.. like JP say..i shld conc on e dialogue of the defendant n the attortney? watever. My spellin is getting worst each day.. Esp my chinese. so damn freakin lo.. havin to translate e english names of the food on the menu to chinese..

Cook not gg to tolerate wif me any further .. ha..

have been going out.. after work.. for e past 4 days.. Tired. Really tired. NO wonder my throat cannot rest.. I simply reach home at 10pm. AFter shower, i head to bed. Nope. I did not sleep immediately.. watch a bit of tv.. Recently.. i've been sleepin in e living room. I think it's just convenient.. lazy to shift back to my own room.

going for my impressario's singing audition on 8 dec. Good luck manz.. Hope I recovered by then..

I just realise that.. $ is damn important. W/o it.. I can't salsa.. ktv.. no movies.. no going out.. no shoppin.. no activities.. for me. So, e menial work that i'm doing now.. is just to sustain me thru this holi. It's not going to be saved up! =(

Well well.. then, work does help to kill time. I just need some exercise. *when i'm sick, i am too tired to do anything*. deep sigh~

Tuesday, November 22, 2005

hectic. .. N more hectic

11:04 PM

haha.. my supervisor.. is shorter than me. This is not e first time ya. During my attachment, my supervisor also shorter or same ht as me! Both very very nice people.. very motherly. I finally understand how n what is it like to work in a zi cha place. Haiz.. when u are busy.. u simply have no time to rest.

During that 4 hours, i was busy..takin orders... clearin e tables, takin out the food.. jus these 3 things.. is enuff!
Hah.. time passes fast. I end my work around 2 pm. When e lunch crowd dies off.. But..that means.. i have to wash e plates.. !!! I never knew it is so tiring to wash e dishes. Though we have 3 waiters (includin me).. But, its like. I don't know.. after washin for 10 min. My back started aching. My stomach started growling..

But, luckily... E cook "cook" for us.. simple dishes la.. But it was nice. The people there are nice as well. Very friendly. Though i was warned that during busy time, e cooks may flare sometimes.. ah~ bit scary. But, luckily.. i hope i din commit grave mistakes today.. =)

I like this job. Maybe I'm too soon to comment it.. Well, it's a good start. =)

Jiayou to me and those who are working as well.

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Went out with YH to bugis. She just finished her exams. Walk around e whole of bugis street. In e end, i ended up with a nail polish and a face mask. She ended up no better than me. 2 nail polish and 1 Underwear. hha..

I was bit tired .. then towards e end, I was really really tired. We went to eat dessert after all e walkin n shoppin. YH was tellin me that Kelvin n Kelly broke up. Was not very surprised. After 4 years plus of relationship, should i say it's a waste. SMU really tempting huh?

Then again, this is my 4th time hearing people (4years + relaionship) breakin up.. And, sad to say, its e guy that enters uni.. n started.. losin direction. Familiar? Haiz.. shall not comment anymore.

*Maybe MY left me. ..not because it's a long dist. Maybe.. its e TEMPTATION". He would have leave me.. even if he is in S'pore studying. hah.. " - That just gives me one more reason.

Saturday, November 19, 2005

Overheard

2:29 PM

my dad say..i learn Salsa.. got motive one. Hah. Got meh? Eh.. let me think. Intially when i learn, i som-ba.. i really got no motives.. but to seriously learn how to salsa n learn how to express myself better thru body movement. Seriously, to my parents, I am brought up conservatively. As i grew up, with better assets.. (a-hem).. i simply don't hav that 'cutie.. pixie" image la. So, i don't where n when i heard it. or maybe i read from magazines.. (If you have it, flaunt it - attitude).

I may dress daringly.. at e right occasion (of course). Though i don't have a terrific figure (bearin in mind that I hav a big tummy). Heck. For all u know, i may just die of cancer tml.. or breast cancer in 5 years time.. U think i care so much meh. ..

Sometimes.. i wonder. I like exciting.. new stuffs.. it's all for e fun of it. Sometimes.. i do also wonder.. tryin.. does make u lose out too.. I mean.. some things are never meant to be tried. Aiya.. i do regret tryin some stuffs la(in my whole lifetime).

So, just now when i overheard what my dad says.. i was like. Haiz.. I just feel so misunderstood.

Maybe, like what he says.. after gg to clubs like Union Square.. seein e Ang mohs.. aiya.. it's really nice to get pick up la.. though i din. but, my intention is not to get pick up leh. I may say that i like Ang Moh.. cos.. i don't like to act conservative la. I do ve a wild side. which unfortunately. i have not uncovered it.. ha.

like last sun, i went for my brother's ROM. I simply wore a halter top n short skirt. My aunt-husband say.. wah. i nv tot u dare to wear this. I was like. Hmm.. I do la. Since i am young, and I'm able to wear whatever i want.. heck lo.

aiya.. just wanna to say that. I wouldn't say that Time is running out.. but I would like to try as much things as possible.. Cause I never know..what will happen tml. =D

Salsa at Union Square

12:34 PM

We had our class at 630pm. We were e earliest. Anyway. Later there was a group of girls n 1 guys (look very very wild.. ). Later, i saw their tags hangin from their necks.. (SMU). I was like. .. whew.. I knew it. Me n sharon are damn intimidated. They look freaking "li Hai - damn zai.. damn wu sey.. can dance damn well kind" la.. Heck.. we went in.. (our instructor Zee was late too). Today was our first lesson, we miss e first lesson (which was sought of quite important lesson la). So, we do not know our basic steps. Anyway. Heck. We went in.. did our basics.. right turn, left turn..

However, i don't know if we are fortunate anot.. but e pace gets faster n faster.. It's absolutely different from Luv la.. basically.. when we had to partner up.. n do e turning.. it was like.. Wah.. hard siah.. Maybe i need more groovin.. to e latin music (which was faster). Anyway.. heck. WE just dance n rotate.. it was fun. very fun. No time to think whether you are right or wrong. Just turn.

However. All these dancin lessons are nothing compared to what we see in Union Square last night. It was absolutely an eye-opener for us. The pros.. o hoo (whistle).. turnin like nobody business.. just a cross body lead left turn would leave my dizzy.. i couldn't imagine e pros.. turnin.. round n round. We stood there watchin while waiting for Qinlei to join us.

Hah.. GUess what. We met our classmates there as well. The SMU gals.. We say hi.. and later.. we managed to strike up conversation la.. They are nice gals. Younger than us. 19 years old. Wah. Young ya.. Actually. I didn realise that I am older than them la.. 2 years.. all right la. ha.. It just shows that young or old.. as long as you are happy with what you do.. like dancin.. you are confident enough.. who CARES!

Anyway. I would say.. E ultimate party of the night.. was my dance with Zee.. I really wanted to get a feel of it.. even if it means.. i have to malu myself. Woah.. It was amazing. =D That kind of feelin is really very very high. Much higher than.. e amt of alcohol i have to drink. ha..

qinlei would have witness that I danced really badly.. turnin right.. when i should have turn left. Forgetting to put my hands on his shoulders.. when i need to.. My legs were actually shakin very badly.. even though i had to maintain my balance wif my damn bloody High heel shoes. *my thighs are achin when i woke up this morning*. U can see e work out i get.. just one single dance.

I don't know how long i will still be so crazy over Salsa. Like i say.. I am a 3-sec person. I hope it will lasts. I really hope to be able to go union sq.. n just boogie all night.. =)

life is good. It couldn't get better!

*hope i get e job - Waitressing.. here i come!*

"If i can find any fault being single, I would say that I can gettin more narcissistic than b4" =P

Friday, November 18, 2005

Overheard

2:29 PM

ShOpPing Trip

9:35 AM

Went out wif Sini after my last pp yesterday. Happy me! ha.. E paper sucks though. It was e worst pp I've ever taken. The paper to OUT TO KILL. I give up doing after 45 min. As i was walking out to the door, I was stopped by one of the invigilator. " YOu can 't GO OUT HERE till 1030!". So, i went back to my seat, pretend that I can WRITE SOME MORE.. but, I simply have no idea what to write.

Anyway. Heck. Just a GE. Can pass can le.

ha. I really enjoy my clothes-tryin session. ha.. Saw many clothes that are sexy.. comfy.. n pretty la.. from Mango n Zara. Haha.. as usual. The Mango n Zara stuffs that girls just like to go Gaga over it.. ha..

Maybe its e mirror that Mango uses.. False illusion.. Sini was telling me. ha..Wah..how nice.. if I really look like dat! So e-longated! So proportionate. But, the blouse that I like cost like 40- 50 bucks. I knew I wouldn't wear it one la.. So sexy.. (actually all right la.. but more for cheonging i think or casual one lo.. *

Maybe I am tanner now.. n i exercise (more tone up definitely.. give a false illusion~) Shop for prezzie.. n got some masks.. korea brand. I bought one for myself n Sini bought one for herself too. i did my mask yesterday. It was a relaxing mask (lemon).. supposed to feel relax after using. My face indeed feel less oily.. n more fresh after using. I like e smell la. as u know.. lemon smell makes u refresh.. my face is now firm n supple now =D~

Yesterday, we went to Taka.. basement .. after walkin around, we decided to eat Central (zhong huan) HK cha lou kind of restaurant. We ate bamboo rice, Yin Yang Red Bean (dessert), Cold tofu wif pork floss (superb). Spent like 22 bucks. Okie la.. In e evening.. we ate Sushi. As much as i would like to avoid Sushi.. but I still couldn't curb my craving la..

Yesterday. Was plainly a catchin up session wif Sini. Talk alot.. many stuffs.. from our own family.. our buddies.. her New HAIRSTYLE! ha. .. her shopPing trips wif her mum.. (envy!*).. comin holiday trip to HK.. or Work n Travel USA thingy next year.. Friends around us.. BReAkin Up stuffs.. How we come to a conclusion that Guys are plain dull n boring n Un-INTERESTING.. when it come to breakin up with a gal. The EXCUSES.. are lame.. n almost e SAME. JUST CUT N PASTE thing. How guys are jerks.. How guys just don make up their minds.. so on n so forth. I couldn't help laughin when sini was tellin me la..

After all these.. we discuss abit on Singlehood. The way we define life. Meaningful life. Workin life. I haven really think of how to define meaninful. At least.. don't let my waste my life.. by sleepin thru.. Rest. Sure, rest does go a long way. Then, a popular Taiwanese TV host, Jacky Wu once said " We would sleep for life when we die, so why worry abt not having enough rest?" How true is that? To people like me who may not understand what "busy" is.. when i can still afford to eat my regular meals at regular time n jog as n when i want.. I wish to get busy. But still lead a "meaningful" life.

Tuesday, November 15, 2005

Dark Chocolates

10:52 PM

I bought one for myself. Nice. but i shall limit myself to 3 pieces a day. ha..Absolutely "sinful" yet rewarding/ satisfying..

Went harbourfront after my exams.. with JP. He accompanied me to Canon Repair centre.. while waiting.. we drank coffee from the "vending" kind of coffee maker. Nice.. It's e best coffee (coffee latte) that I've drank. Since, i ate a banana for lunch (right after my exams at 4pm). We decided to walk around .. shop awhile. I enjoy shoppin with my buddy. He never failed to "reject" me. Be it very girly kinda of shop or the kinky kind? hah.. Eh.. no la. I wouldn't want to embarrass myself or him.

As i was looking for this shop which was featured in one of the magazine - Walking Culture. Finally, i found it. Chey~ e shoes not very nice. Very auntie.. i find it. I went to another shoe shop though- VNC. (based in malaysia). I saw this shoes (there is ribbon behind it. Quite high.. I like it. But, then.. don't ve my size. Damn.. ACcording to the salesgal, shoes in size 3 only come in a pair. So, since it is an old stock, hmm.. doubt they will have it. I like shoes that have a back support for my ankle. This is to facilitate my walking. That pair of shoes is about 7 - 8 cm tall. Haha.. i feel tall when i wear it. I ask JP to stand beside me .. still I AM SHORT. He is still almost 2 heads taller than me!!

Though i walk out VNC empty-handed, I feel happy.

Later, JP wanted to see "ships".. He just likes ships. I don't know why. He likes cruises.. I don't like. I like to look at e sea... He likes to be on a ship.. lookin out at the sea. ha.. anyway. According to a shopkeeper, the seaview is blocked. So, it's hard to sea the seaview from the World TRade centre. Later.. we went out to the open space. No ships to be seen. ha.. I told JP.. that my first Date was there. Wah.. so many donkey years ago.. I vaguely remember.. ha.. interesting.. nostalgic?! ha..

Today.. I talk so much with my buddy. Haven't seen him face to face ever since sch started. I only got to go out with him.. after he finished his last paper (today). hah..

Talk alot. HIs family situation.. which don't seem too good. (financially). How he aspired to study hard.. very hard.. for his degree or rather his minor. He has high hopes maybe due to his family burden. His sister has been muggin hard! VEry competitive in Economics (HSS).. i heard.

3 years ago. My buddy.. told me. " Study is not everything k.. ". NOW.. "I wanna have a good degree.. " As you can see.. 3 years make alot of difference! People can change. I am not saying that change is no good. But, I read in one article before. "There are many perspectives in life. Now, you may be seeing this "thing" in this view, few years later, you might have a change of perspective". I just find it so amazing..

It feels abit weird. Though i kinda expect it sooner or later. As we grow older, there are many burdens coming along . .. bear more responsibilites.. These are the things that may tie us down.. makin us more weary.. Making it harder for us to make decisions.. Sad to say, your decision not only affect you. .. but e ones around you.

Then again, isn't this life is about? no matter how hard it is.. having family n frens support is important. As I grow older, I tend to appreciate the things in life. NOt only e physical comfort but also.. e close ties with your family n frens.. Cheerios.. to U.

8:36 AM

blur~ Auto shot in hotel RoOmie~

8:33 AM

Shortie with Family ~

Sunday, November 13, 2005

camera broken

6:33 PM

I just dropped my camera today. Thud. I thought.. it should be okie. Boo Hoo.. TODAY. I WAS SUPPOSE to take pictures. N I AM JUST SO DAMN CARELESS. WHY MUST I ALWAYS DO THIS TO MYSELF. WHY I CAN'T SEEM TO RISE TO THE OCCASION?

Erh....ANGRY.

I look PRETTY today. Though i think Zoel.. look prettiest .. I like my hair (styled by my mum). Too bad.. u don't get to see it. haiz.. wasted. Nvm.. i tie it again next time. After i repaired my camera first.

SICK. Feel like gettin another camera. I like the IXUS CANON one. COST 649 bucks. Not bad hor?

maybe i shall get it next yr.

shall upload e photos.. as soon as i got it. =)

Saturday, November 12, 2005

FIRST TIME

8:38 PM

hah.. my sis- in-law did! yeah.. ha.. pampered. Can you imagine ur sis-in-law doin pedicure n manicure for u? Is my FIRST TIME lo. ha.. I like it. very girly stuffs.. NOw, i know what to do when .. i hav nth to do on a sat aftnoon. ha.. Is really fun.. My fingernails.. are stickers while my toe nails (purple ribbons are glued). I know I am kinda of late.. into this kinda of things.. rather late. People finish dabbling in such stuffs, then now then i start. *I never thought i would go into such thing b4, Not in my lifetime..* It goes to show that even if you have short nails like me. (I never grow my nails). U still can look pretty.. i mean ur nails.

Hehz.. so girly that I think.. next time.. if we - gals got nth better to do.. we can do manicure or pedicure on each other ya.. so fun~ save $ also. hha..

ok. Going to take photos tml. I sought of decided what I am going to wear. A denim short skirt with a black, beaded blouse. I have an urge for shopping suddenly. But i know I am going broke soon. ha..

Maybe it's just my period. muahhaha.. =) doing face mask tonight. Good night, folks.

4:36 AM

Wrinkled foot - Purple Ribbon

4:34 AM

close shot~

4:33 AM

prEtty nails.. i lurve it!

Friday, November 11, 2005

Fat-nomia

9:42 PM

Yeah. I ate Mac today. They sat at MacDonald's at JEC. So, I HAD tO EAT IT. Nth healthy there. too PAISEH to just grab an apple. They do sell apple though. With four BIG GUYS MUNCHING DOWN THE "UPSIZE" MEAL .. actually i not sure if they upsize anot. I saw some of their cups bit taller than e regular ones .. I ate Happy Meal which comprises of Yogurt, a small coke and a cheeseburger. Boo hoo~ feel like crying le. I am making a big FUSS .. DAMN! I SAID IT LOUD N CLEAR! THE MORE I AVOID EATING SUCH THINGS.. THE MORE IT JUST LIKE TO APPEAR IN FRONT OF ME!

going to stop all this nonsense!

Haiz.. women being fickle-minded.. I realise that I still don't know what I am going to wear on SUnday for my BIG BROTHER's ROM! DOn't know why but i walked into THIS Fashion today and came out with shopping bags. I bought a black top (with beads.. I just like it.. the moment i saw it, i am so in lurve wif it! =P) Then, I also bought a brown scarf. AFter seeing my big jugg-ly arms.. i realise... I need some coverage here! hmm.. going to take some photos on Sunday. =P

I said i would lose weight for my "photo shoots" but.. then, i didn't .. so, the best alternative is to hide whatever fat that i have. At least for now. =)

it's time for Salsa~ *big smile*

Thursday, November 10, 2005

Buddy gettin on my nerves~

11:53 PM

Told him many times le.. still do it! "ah Bieech.. " always like to irritate me.. with the "good results.. huh.. getting a degree with merit. .. etc.." Okie. Hey.. I care alot abt my grades one u know. Though i may seem very cool and nonchalent abt it.. but ppl who are like me.. "tiam.. tiam kinda" don't talk abt it doesn't mean that he/she don't care k.. always come n provoke me! This time, i don't give face le..

Wah lao..lao hu bu fa wei dang bing mao~ (chinese saying.. A tiger must show his power if not people might think it is a sick cat) - Direct translation. Lousy.

I am only irritated for a while la. But as i was getting bit uncomfortable, i was just thinking.. wat was his motive? People who like to irritate people by sayin such things.. are people who are actually very worried for himself. So, in order to make him feel that he is not so lousy, he is just maybe.. thinking that there are plenty out there (not so good grades one).. so that he is not the lousiest?? I don't get it la.

Even that time Bomb msn me.. askin me how are my grades. I was tellin him that my grades were bad. Mostly Cs n a couple of Ds. Of course. Now, i have few Bs.

hha.. n he thought I was the 'Smart one" cos i studied in VJC. O.. u mustn't look at the "outer" appearance n judge people .. u shouldn't think that someone from VJC will definitely do very well in university. LIke me for instance.

Then, again from e moment i step into NTU. Getting good grades wasn't the top priority for me. I knew exactly what i want to experience in NTU. Learnin to bal studies n alot of other things isn't easy. To be able to do well in all those things.. is a great challenge. If my only priority in University is to get the first class honours, I would have do very well for my first quiz in YEAR ONE SEM 1 for statistic module. Basically, i only studied one day before e test, n i got 3 or 5 upon 15. I couldn't remember e exact grades though. I was demoralise la.. seein some of fren scored full marks. Despite all that, i still diligently do my tutorials la. It paid off.. cos I get Grade C for it. Though the final exam constitute only 60% of the final grade. I fail for my 40%. N I FAILED IT MISERABLY (gettin less than 20% or even less). So, come to think of it, I must have do well in my final exam in order to pull up my overall grades. I don't know what happen throughout my 2 years plus of university days. don't seem to do well for exams except for the last sem. too involved in my CCA? my tuition? Pa tor days? ha..

Anyway, I can't change e past or my grades. I can only look forward to future challenges. Ain't i optimistic?

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i ate my 3rd ice-cream of the week. I don't get it. The more I resist eating something like dat.. e more my dad just like to spoil me with that "icy-sweet.. o so delicious" chocolate ice-cream. Can i throw it away like dat? Absolutely not right? haiz.. die die also must eat. Even if it takes 30 min of jogging which i did after dat. haiz.. Why must u torture me this way? I can never seem to blast my fat aways like tis.. always do enough work out to blast whatever i ate that day. SO ANGRY!!

not going to wish for anything. In case, e worst is yet to come! =D

Wednesday, November 09, 2005

Anxiang's Bday on tuesday

4:50 PM

I mean celebrated for him on Tuesday. ha.. Guess.. I must explain bit la.. if not.. e "threesome" thing.. bit funny..

hehz.. Cut my hair on tuesday. I feel light now. ha.. I like cutting my hair. I did the scalp treatment too. I always have my scalp treatment one.. cos.. My scalp is oily.. n I DON"T WASH IT DAILY cos it'll be too dry la. But if wash it on alternate day.. then it'll be oily.. haiz.. wat to do? I told you already. I am a born freak! hah..

going to do my nails.. later part of this wk. (my sis-in-law) very gianz.. so wanna help me do it. Although i already say I don't nails liao.. but she still insisted ha.. nvm.. DIY. See how? if nice, i might consider growing my nails.. n have it "professionally" done! So as to avoid biting my nails, you see! ha..

Went gym today. I work out for 1 hour plus.. As i seldom go gym.. everytime i go.. I would forget how to operate those machines.. and I look damn blur la.. Luckily, today I met a very helpful fitness trainer over there.. She is nice.. Correct my position.. so that I can concentrate on workin on the muscle that I want. Actually, it is important .. i mean your position, whether you should sit lower .. your shoulders.. cannot open too wide.. if not, you will not be isolating your triceps when doing the "tricep" machine la. After i correct my position, i can feel the tension la.. (B4 she told me that I was doing wrongly, I was still happily pushing down the weight comfortably.. sap sap soi *cantonese*).

What shall i wear on Sunday? hmm.. i decided not to wear my LBD le. So fat, so ugly. And since it is going to be held by the pool side.. (pray that it'll be a good day). I think I shouldn't dress too formal also. Black traps heat. Not a wise choice. *hehz.. don't worry. I save my LBD when i go Salsa.. heez.. * haiz..

Felt a shock when i suddenly read my notes (Econs theory 2) just now. Suddenly , realise like alot to study~ Going to meet Wencai n Rong-ge to discuss past yr paper on Friday. Better finish my revision. ha.. NO exam mood le!

Play too much! Back to muggin..

Tuesday, November 08, 2005

7:56 AM

threesome~

Monday, November 07, 2005

my bloody drivin la

9:11 PM

as long as i don't pass my drivin test.. it's gonna obstuct whatever I'm gonna do~ damn shit~ I've been waking up with nightmare..thinkin I'm just not going to pass my driving test. Which I've been tellin myself that I can do it.

Can't go anywhere... due to my drivin test.. haiz..am so sianz abt it~

Then, my fren tell me she gg HK~ Sharon, bren they all headin Bangkok the second time~ can u imagine~ hrm... *heart-aches* okie la. I had my fair share of fun too.. hah.. When all my frens headin overseas.. what shall i do leh?

kekz. Find a proper job. I realise that I'll soon face account deficit this comin dec. With birthdays comin up.. and xmas too! maybe since i so bo.. i might as well think of ideas to celebrate ~ ha.. actually, i wish to spend xmas overseas.. bintan be nice~ ha...

No one just wanna go Genting with me~ sianz.. must i always rope in guys to go wif me? not i don't wanna ask gals along.. but i don't know why.. we never seem to come to an agreement.. or the time just don't match! haiz.. nvm la. maybe i just need more patience~ Good things are worth waiting for ~

Gonna celebrate Anxiang's bday tml.. say we gg to eat sth diff? like mexican food? scandinavian food? Muthu's curry? Italian? Thai? hmm.. i don't know leh..

my head is spinnin a bit.. I think I need some rest ~

my dear frens.. have an enjoyable trip ya.. ~ Do remember to bring back some gifts for me~ heez.. *wink*

Saturday, November 05, 2005

Exercise Journal 5 Nov 2005

11:26 PM

ha.. I went for jog again! No one at home. NO one cook lunch, dinner for me! I was home e whole day.. Slack e whole day.. din even touch my books.. till now. It's open book this monday.

Tried the exam papers le.. so... I shall just go thru. so that easier to refer when i sit for exam on monday.

Saw Guess3 on friday. That episode features those "petite gals all less than 1.5m and less than 40 kg" I think i just wish to reach 40 kg. I think I am just not cut out to be those skinny, petite kind. I am towards the athletic, short, "stout" - very very sad to say.. haa..

I know it's possible to reach this target if I got the willpower la.. Cos I remember my weight drop to 41 kg last year. It was intensive exercise combined with very "strict" diet la.. I mean still 3 meals a day.. but no junk food la. Anyway.. I had plenty of things occupying my mind at that time.. so you won't think of eating also..so easier to curb my craving.. haiz..

To dearest Xiang ge: Haiz.. I also know it's always nice to eat wif frens.. enjoying nice food.. It's a ren sheng xiang shou leh.. but, then.. watchin my tummy growing bigger each day just makes me sianz.. "it must be that damn drink i had last monday" - I SO REGRET LO.. it serves as a punishment for me.. to work very hard to get rid of my big beer belly.. haiz..

I never know i would "hate" drinking so much now.. Now, i really hate the feeling of burping and that alcohol smell .. yucks~ maybe a glass will do.. and slowly.. not like wat i did last monday. I simply drink it within 40 min.. shitz.. really feel like slappin myself for doing such stupid thing..

Actually, I am angry with myself la.. for that night. For drinkin so much.... I realise it's hard to control urself when you are bit drunk.. I don't like the feeling of losing control which i always emphasise that girls shouldn't get drunk.. it's ugly. And this time, I almost commit this mistake myself.. Qian da right~

K.. I am just so disgusted with the whole drinking thing~

It's healthy and military- style lifestyle for me onwards~ =D

shall update on my weight ya.. kekz.. so u can see what diet is useful, what's not kekz..

Thursday, November 03, 2005

eyes off screen.. Ass off..

2:52 PM

not scoldin bad words..jus wanna praise myself. ha..I did my jog today! AFter switchin off my alarm at 715 am today.. due to the bad weather.. it was raining then, I continue to sleep till 10 am. ha.. feel so energetic after 9 hours of sleep. ha..

As usual, grab my newspaper.. ate 2 bananas.. 3 biscuit.. i feel damn fat.. n full (of course). I watch Tv (nth to watch though its like HOLIDAY leh!!!) Switch of my tv n went back to my com!!

nth to surf.. check my email.. sianz.. haven got the study mood yet.. what shall i do?

i decided to go running! at 1130am. It was breezy.. not very hot. But when i reached the reservoir.. wah piang. I simply regretted. not puttin on my sunblock.. I admit. It was a tough run. after running 2 km.. I really feel very drained n tired. Feel like walkin back home.. But, I perservered.. last 1 km. I die die also must finish e "race". So, with my "blistered right foot" i jog slowly back home. I felt a sense of achievement n satisfaction.

now, i know why i always feel lethargic.. n binge so much when i so super tired. I don't exercise la.. n i feel very sianz n guilty abt it.. always procrastinating.. I hope this is a good start.. =P

actually running not only keep ur endorphin high.. keep u happy.. but the Post-workout is e most shuang part! after sweating like mad, you take a long bath, scrub urself.. condition ur hair.. wah..it's an indulgence manz! haiz.. jus din put mask only.. if not.. shuang si le!

u must be thinking.. siao right.. exam period still can do this kinda of thing! ha. precisely exam period.. then sianz mah.. not feelin stress at all. I am always e odd one out la.. ~

my pri sch chinese teacher used to tell me " if you have prepared enough, you can even watch a movie b4 exams" - no last minute work. How true it is..

Yesterday, i msg my pri sch fren, Gennie. I decided that it's time that i should start contact my long-lost fren.. before its too late. She's going to get engaged next yr. ha.. happy for her. she can have her own family at last. I hope this guy treats her well. Don't bully her. She's been thru alot.. (we won't know how it's like one la.. ) At least compared to her, I have got a supportive family. So, dear Gennie... you must be xing fu o ..

feeling chirpy now.. =)

Wednesday, November 02, 2005

jus feel like gg for a Haircut

10:52 PM

everytime also like dat. Whenever exams come, i will want to go for a haircut. Bit sianz of my long hair which is always pulled up in a ponytail. I like clean look la.. no hair flyin around my face. And it is also easier to manage.. can always tie up in a bun.. whenever i am feelin hot..

Bit tired of my red hair.. ha. cos it's fadin off.. gradually. N becos of it.. i can't swim without dye-ing the water. Eww.. seriously. My laziness is in my bones.. pushin back my joggin.. watever be it in mornin or evening... readin the hell lotsa Shape magazines is not helpin.. always have that "last year.. this time.. I am damn skinny.. ? now look at me.. like a damn pig!" no motivation..haiz.. it does not help when my dad keep buyin choc waffles back.. n Bananas.. (i know is fruit but its not very good..cos its sweet). And buyin nuts.. I love munchin them..

Recently.. after that "drink" incident.. I just think.. i had enough of sweet stuffs.. don't ve much cravin for it..but my stomach tends to be bit full after i eat abit.. don't know how to explain this weird change in me.

Today, went out to have a discussion on my exam pp which is comin this friday. 5 guys n 1 gal.. cool huh? well well.. okie la. serious stuffs. Nothing special .. reached home.. at about 330.. started watchin Tv till 9 pm.

surfin my net till 10 pm.. maybe later gg to revise abit.. n tml revise.. more.. n on fri.. it's exam time! How i wish time flies.. c'mon.. I really wish to cut my hair.. ! should i cut my hair next wk?

Why am i facin such dilemma? =(

Tuesday, November 01, 2005

hung over~

12:54 PM

I really feel like vomiting. I don't get e headache but I just feel so full.. full of toxic inside my stomach. I don't know how long it will last. Can only blame myself. I only drank 3 full cup of beer. ergh~ ppl like askin me to "ta".. okie lo.. Was bit high or rather i feel sleepy la.. tryin to open my eyes.. keep myself awake.

Picked up a call midnight.. n i jus went. Feel like bashin myself! makin myself so miserable now. Hope drink tea will help! let my vomit please!!

Don't feel like eating anything. Absolutely no appetite! which is good n bad. okie. I guess i won't drink already le.. not in e near future. Bit scared le.. =(

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Was bit too high last night. Had to reject people unconciously~ Okie la.. like dat.. both not so embarrass mah ~ How come huh? I realise that I nv like you leh? Even a small hug from you don't make me feel anything? maybe I am drunk le la.. Normally I'll be very quite "spontaneous" leh.. hah.. not "suey bian" k..

Say alot of bullshit.. don't even know what I am saying. Feel like sleepin.. feel like vomiting.. how to talk like dat.. anyway. Good la.. Maybe I haven met e right guy ~ e kind i will have feelin..

I just think i am e kind of "3-sec" enthu.. kinda of person. perhaps even in relationship~ n many other things la.. sad to say~

LET mE VOMIT~~!!!!! Not gg to have a good deepavali for me! =(