Saturday, December 31, 2005
Happy New Year!
I enjoyed my New Year Countdown. with... *drumrolls...* my Farrago!!
The name list goes like this.
lexian
sini
karen
kahhui
yokehui
Huijing
angela
gillian
Aaron
Jiankai
Adrian
ha.. Power siah..
IN e end, this survivor of e fittest kinda of New year celebration was well -planned. The wet weather plan was bit abrupt but we survived.
e itinery goes like this.
Party World KTv at Orchard from 2 - 6 pm. Ala carte buffet at Rice Table at Somerset from 7pm to 9 pm. Mel's house (PUB) located at East Coast Road from 930 to 1 am. ha.. then, we exchanged our gifts n unwrapped our gifts after 12 am. ha.. N i gave everyone a kiss except e 3 guys. ha..
I got Ginger cookies from Ada. N sini fortunately or unforturnately got my gift! ha..
After that, we walked further down to a Hong Kong style noodle shop which sells hong kong food la.. We ate "tou si" - (kaya, peanut butter), po luo bao (pineapple bao), and most of them drank e tea (nai3 nai3) taste ha.. KK n Aaron should know. ha.. I din drink cos i scared i will ve stomachache.
We sat there n chit chat till 4 am before heading off to ECP to pitch our tents (thanks to KK .. n e guys effort la). We managed to finish pitching e tent by 5 am, immediately after that it started to rain. ha.. n 8 girls squeeze in one single tent. It was terribly hot n stuffy.. KH n HJ buey tahan..so they decide to brave e rain. As u know, being lazy i laid down n began to sleep.. ha.. I din la.. jus resting only. One by one left e tent as the air outside is better and then rain is seeping into the tent.
then we talked.. n i eavesdropped ha.. till about 7 am. Though my eyes were closed, but i din sleep la.. I think i only catch my sleep at about 7 plus for 15 min. (cos they all walked out of e tent). When i woke up, i realised that e guys began to sleep at e other tent.
Then, we began to talk loudly so that e guys could wake up and we can ve our Mac breakfast. By this time, most of us look zombre la.. (BUT E ULTIMATE IS STILL 2003) The guys finally got up and changed while ada changed in e tent. WE girls began to disturb (ka jiao) him, tryin to open e tent ha.. He had to use one hand to prevent us from opening while. .. changing. IT was hilarious la.. =)
Then, later we walk about 10 min plus to MAc.. Finally. All of us.. (brain-dead cos most of us catch at most 1 hr of sleep or none). AFter breakfast, e "cheater" side comprises of (karen, gillian, Aaron, Huijing and KH) played UNO STacko.. ha.. WE watched them play for a while and when e game finally end, we decide to head home.
These are e memories that I really treasure .. e life in NTU. My fellow farragoes. I may not understand them very well but u know who u can count on.. if u need any help from them. E Food-hunting long "walks", e BBQ.. n many more..
i know that this would not be possible w/o KK, aaron, Ada they all.. w/o e guys.. we would be still little girls.. not knowing all e good places to eat..
Cest la vie to friendship forged .. =)Happy New Year!
* Desperately need to sleep* I 've not been sleeping well over e past 2 weeks. It's my second wkend, dawn-ing e whole night. And out pop 3 ulcers in my mouth. Heaty.. lack of rest... O. And some more. fri i had to work till 2 am. haiz.. =) Playin very very hard.. i need rest!
Thursday, December 29, 2005
Busy Xmas n New Year
it's gonna be e last day of work for this year.. not sure if I am continuing anot.. I really miss e people over there.. =) "yat gor - No. One brother" , "keong gor" and "lai gor" ha.. Today I am just gonna work round e clock from 11 am to 2 am.. I hope e shop closes soon... so i may get a chance to go Union after tt if possible.
Xmas really fun.. spent at Sharon's house. I din sleep a wink for e whole night.. went home at about 630am. Then, i woke up again at 10 and idle for a while before heading off to Sentosa for salsa again..I am a fanatic huh?!
I tot.. i better add bit of oil.. to prevent e "passion flame" from dying off..
Was really busy this week.. Tuesday went to meet Jannie after work before heading off to Union again.. Wednesday.. No work. But did some FYP.. and attended a job interview. I am really confused.
Nvm.. i shall think about it again.. (e job interview). I must really learn how to discern e whole lotsa information tat guy "pour out".
Yest, i went wif Eugene to Union again. Firstly, we went to Ikea for dinner.Finally had a taste of Swedish meatballs. hmm.. I think.. it's okie. I am not particularly into "meat' ya.. so it tastes okie. Eugene keep psycho me eat e Chicken wings.. but I rejected. ha.. dying to lose that irriating fats!
So gonna exercise. =)
Then, we shop around.. browse around before driving off to Union at about 9 pm. It was quite empty. Okie. The interesting part is that Eugene was dancing non-stop. I was feeling quite bored.. but, i mean it's fun watching them dance.. I love watching them dance..
At about 1130 plus, Eugene was like.. " u go ask them dance la!" - pointing at e dance instructors like Jackson (from J & J dance sch), Leslie ( ADS) and this guy (regular salsaro) who dances pretty well..
Okie. I did. I went up to each of them, and ask them for a dance. U can imagine la.. super paiseh and thick-skinned la. I learnt COopa and bit of Coke and e Twisting stuffs.. ha..
Seriously, I am still bit not comfortable with their arms wrappin around my waist and I have to turn to face them somemore. This means even closer to each other lo.. haiz.. I must overcome my embarrassment.
so. I conclude. That I really enjoy my dance with Jackson. He really encourages me .. =)
It's time to get myself a pair of dancing shoes. Calling Uncle Chong ~
Tuesday, December 20, 2005
Anger
I realise that u will always vent ur frustration on ppl that are close to you. LIke all human, we tend to take frens/ "close ones" for granted.
I forgot when was e last time, i got so angry and got so piss off with anyone other that my previous relationship. I was simply teething with angerthen.. u can imagine smoke coming out from me..
That was very scary. I realised that it got worst when you are angry with someone whom you are so "close" to.. Especially when he/she makes you disappointed.
And when you get super angry, you just lose control. Trust me.. I've been through it. The feeling is terrible. Especially e aftermath. I was quite upset with myself when I totally lose control of my temper and my EQ just dive down.. I think near to Zero. Now, thinking back, I just wonder where did i gain those " energy" - boiling in me.. ha..
Anyway. I blog about this because recently, i tink i piss someone off. And yup. I got pissed back. ha..
Many times, when we abt to explode or rather lose control of our emotions, I really think e best thing to do is to walk away. I mean getting off sight. No even seeing anyone u "hate". Cos even though you may not confront e person, being physically "there" is torturing to both parties.
So, i really want to say sorry to MY. If i ever have e chance to talk to you again, i would really want to apologise for my behaviour. I'm sorry I just lose control of my emotions. I went overboard. Saying things that are really very mean ha..
Because of this (maybe it left an impact on me), it makes me realise that I'm not capable of loving anyone. When i really love someone, I can just lose my control/ or even basic dignity - saying mean things when I am super super angry. So, to make this world a better place (chey. I am just an individual in this big big world), I think its better for me to stay single and learn to better control my temper.
okie. I am just consoling myself for being single. =)
A: " Did Alfred call you last night?"
B: No.
A: He ask me if i want to go for a xmas party next wk.
B: woah. Ok. How come he din ask me huh? "hmmmm....."
B: tsk tsk.. Maybe..
A: Aiya. No la..
What do you think Alfred is trying to do? Can anyone tell me?
Salsa @Sentosa on boxing Day
Sunday, December 18, 2005
birthday Cake! 
Yilin, Huixian and me!
2 + 1 = 21? yEaRs oLD!
Krystal, Huixian (bday gal) and Yilin
Sunday Volunteering
it's a habit now. Family day. I finally have my family day on Sunday. ha..
Today I woke feeling peculiar. "eh.. how come my dad din wake me up to eat breakfast with my brother?" It seems that every Sunday, my whole family including my sis-in-law (Zoel)n my brother will go for Breakfast and head off to their new house to clean e house. The whole family is helpin my brother "renovate" the house. Painting job will be done on 25 dec and 1st of Jan. =D
It feels kinda warmth(wen xing) lo.. Maybe I am an adult now. I'm no longer a school girl.. I am just waiting for my turn to earn bring back bread n butter.. and pay for e necessary bills.. ha..
Today, Zoel was looking at a letter sent by the Town council.. It is a bill for the maintenance & servicing of the flat la... mthly bill - $80. Haiz. another bill to pay. sucks siah..
Everything also needs $$ manz.. I think my brother is having a headache! ha..
I was just thinkin.. hmm.. maybe when the house is ready, i can move over my brother's hse to stay.. (tt is after i start work first).. ha e flat is big.. =) a HDB mansionette.. heez.. I can imagine lo.. Wah. That'll be such a perfect situation lo..
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Zoel's advice "next time, if you marry.. marry a rich guy.. then.. u no need to work so hard. If not, get a husband like ur brother who is hardworkin?" ????
Well, i must say that my brother has got a goal now.. No longer is he.. idling.. boozing.. wasting his youth away. At least he now has a house and a wife to take care.. so, having a goal is important!
AFter his downfall in 2004, he picked himself up.. and yup. I am proud of him. My good brother.
AFter hearing e advice from Zoel, I am just so glad that I have no burden now. Young and Single.. and spending what i want (salsa lessons )... =P
Quote: Sometimes, it isn't a bad thing if you fall down, because you will learn and grow up. The biggest mistake is never learn your mistakes. - Zoel
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In Perhaps Love (movie), True love is always in your memory, but you will never be with your true love. Well, in life, we may have one or several true loves.. However, each memory is worth keeping. But, i truly believe, true love means allowing them to choose their own identity, who they want to be with.. hao wei ta ah..
U can never change e fact, or others, the best way you can do is accept it, change your perceptions. And move on.
I realise that people around me.. don't like moving on. I don't understand why. I hope I will never have to deal with such situations..
=( my dance partner say I'm fat. =( I am so gonna diet.
I am going Msia for chi New Year. Gg to my grand pa pa hse.. KL .. Genting.. =D YEah..
Thursday, December 15, 2005
last 10 days of work
that wraps up my waitressing job at SHenton Way. I am abit sad. I mean bu she de. People there are very nice.
It happens almost everytime. When i finish my part-time job, I will bit sad. Don't feel like leaving them. =)
But, then, I am getting bored to my job also. AFter all, I have done 1 mth of waitressing cum Washing.
It's time for me to move on. Now, to think abt it, i may not want to work in a cafe le. I mean like those coffee beans or wat. ha..
Hmm..Wat shall i do then? Maybe just enjoy my last sem. With a bit of fyp, tuition. Though Not earning e maximum, but then, since it'll be my last sem of student life then, yup.. Stop torturing myself. ha.. =D
I think I need to learn how to tolerate somemore. I tot.. I am well-trained in this area. But, being a human, I am still affected leh. phew~ i hope "A" will stop la. Haiz... I shouldn b complaining but it's very hard to work wif someone's who has mood swing. hmm... Maybe I am thinking too much. I shall do my own stuffs and see how things go.
No one can affect ur mood unless u allow them to..
cheer up baby!
Wednesday, December 14, 2005
Huixian's bday
not getting use to my long nails. Can't really feel anything as i type the keyboard.
Argh~ retype everything.. Think i cut things short.
Sorry if my grammar is terrible. Cos, i don't think i am "awake" enough to edit it.
If someone throws a cream cake at ur gf, what will you do?
1) play along
2) stop the person.
Huixian's bf did no. 2. i thought tt was sweet.
For me, i prefer my bf to play along, later help me clean up e mess. ha..
2004, me n hx both attached. Still happily chatting about them. Now, 1 year ++ gone,and there i am happily single while she is still wif her 'hubby". ha.. Dearest Hx, can still ask me.. " Eh.. i tot u attached, why put single on Friendster? "Alamak! break up liao la.. of cos put Single?!"
life strange isn't it. What's urs will be urs. =)
yest, was chattin wif chloe on e phone.. wah.. chatted for 1 hour plus.. was quite amazed. ha..
I'm glad i know one more salsa khaki.. other than my beloved Sharon .. =)
okie. I'm tired and full. gonna sleep. Ciao~
recently, was watchin Channel 8 nine o clock show. the dancing one. I was so engross in e show, that i cried on bus (TV mobile). Damn malu !!
Hate Zijian ! Coward! Fickle-minded. =P
Monday, December 12, 2005
It was a tough fight.
But, I won. ha.. I can't believe it. I was jumping up and down when i saw my instructor. =)
Never have i felt so happy.. I mean it's been a long time since I'm so happy.
Hurray. I don't think i want to repeat the whole process here cos it'll be bit draggy. ha..
Anyway. I passed. That's adds one more "driver" to our group comprising of Brenda, Jac, Yian, Qinlei. ha.. Sharon learning. So, should ve no prob la. Only Hm, Yiwen and Yenxin don't ve la. No worry. =)
ha..one thing off my mind. Now, I need to think how to "replenish" my bank account. Though I've just claim from my dad. heez.. Still, money is my greatest motivation. ha..
gonna work for 3 more weeks. At least earn back my driving and cost of repairing my cam. ha.. okok. wait for me k.. I'm gonna Get U Back.
Salsa.. Friday? hmm..=)
Yest went to Sini's birthday celebration at Phin's STeakhouse at Liang Seah St. It was cosy. I was famished. ha.. nice though sambal is bit spicy for me. ha..
Later Brecko at Bugis. I treated la.. cos I am happy. ha..
It's my third time celebrating Sini's birthday. The 1st one was dim sum? that was a co-celebration for Yiwen n Sini at Mirammar Hotel. We had dim sum lunch buffet. ha.. that was donkey years ago. It seemed like quite long ago. Years catchin up..
I hope we have more of such celebrations again!
Mt Faber or East Coast ? hmm.... New Year's cOunting doWn!
Sunday, December 11, 2005
"Great"!! Union Sq is increasing its fee!
Argh! Damn.. My Ladies nights.. are gone. Damn.. Now, non-members pay 15 bucks k.. =(
This is so damn saddenning.. =(
Boo hoo... luckily i drag Chloe along last friday. If not, she is so going to miss e Ladies night.. =(
okie.. jus my usual complaints! =(
Good luck to me k.. =) I will stay focused. I will win this Battle! =)
Saturday, December 10, 2005
Quiz
The Keys to Your Heart
You are attracted to those who are unbridled, untrammeled, and free.In love, you feel the most alive when your lover is creative and never lets you feel bored.You'd like to your lover to think you are loyal and faithful... that you'll never change.You would be forced to break up with someone who was ruthless, cold-blooded, and sarcastic.Your ideal relationship is lasting. You want a relationship that looks to the future... one you can grow with.Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment.You think of marriage something you've always wanted... though you haven't really thought about it.In this moment, you think of love as commitment. Love only works when both people are totally devoted.
Friday outing
Union Sq.. i dragged Chloe and Yonghui along. ha.. Stupid Gary la.. aiya. i tot.. i'll go alone. But, in e end, i still managed to drag someone along wif me.. =D
luv my Fridays.. getting paid. Then, again, on e same day, my "pay" given away . .. argh~ And I'll be slogging for next 3 weeks.. Nth extra.. but again to pay for my driving lessons.. Feel like killing myself.. ~
If not for driving, i wouldn't need to slog so hard lo. ..
Lady boss tempting me.. asking me if i want to work in New Year's Eve? huh.. Farrago going out? I calculated le.. if i work on 30 and 31 Dec. I can earn abt 130++ Good deal? Not bad la..
luckily I already paid my Salsa I one lessons.. which i'll be going this sat.. hmm.. ya hor.. almost forgot all about it..
This coming week. Okie. Less hectic.. But still, almost have something on every other day. Attending birthdays of course.. My darling's birthday is jus around the corner.. ha.. Still haven decide what to get for her..
Yeah.. no Work tml! Haiz.. But FYP TODAY. B4 my "big BOss-HM" comes back from Bangkok. ha..
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I went to Dodo's birthday yesterday. ha.. It must be organised by her parents.. cos i saw alot of children and her relatives.. ha.. Dodo looked pretty in her usual white spag and denim jeans.. Again. .. She looks lovely and yup.. wif her lovely bf - calvin.
I ate okie. a Bit of everything. The cake from 4 leaves was nice. The kind you eat.. and it feels like you are eating ferraro Roche kind... ha.. =P
Jun and Mag suggested going somewhr.. but later changed our mind cos we were damn tired. I was tired la.. I went salsa on Friday and reached home at about 1+ and settled everything by 2 am. Woke up at 845 am on sat before headin down to sch to do my FYP.
Boon Cheong still ask me to chill out or go salsa? I was like.. bit gianz.. bit hesitant? later, i decided that I should go home and rest. =P
Finally replenish my sleep...
Driving later.. save me! =( --------> =) *cheer up*
pickin up reaDing againz..!
Short stories. by Joyce Carol Oates.
Tuesday, December 06, 2005
geTting hoOked
Yeah.. gg twice per week. Union. Yeah..
And sharon gg away soon.. tml actually. Bren, Jac, huimei too.. =(
ha.. and today. I lost e bet. Kekez.. to Sharon. Hey c'mon. sharon also kenna ask leh.. heez..
Haiz... it should be a happy occasion. But, tell u something. I am very "uncomfortable" if someone ask for my no. Unless i ask them personally, if not.. i feel damn awkward leh.. Haiz.
should u give ur no if ur colleague ask ur no.? tricky qn huh.. Don't give.. like don give face.. Give.. (damn.. i can feel that u r up to no good leh.. ) =(
I cannot take it.. if a guy treats u especially well.. =( ulterior motive. hey.. my motive for salsa is just to keep myself happy.. social dancing.. So, after e dance.. hey.. c'mon we are just dance partners. Nothing more.
Maybe my dance partner not captivating enough .. ha.. Not a good catch then..
I can't help thinkin that if one of them falls for me? Am i thinking too much? Hah.. anywae.. is better for me to be prepared for such things.. Eww.. HOrrible. HorriBle MAN. Man.. simply just so ****.
So sorry abt it.. but, I must say this. GuYs suck a big TIME.
why am i so pissed? *coughing away*
Saturday, December 03, 2005
Pathetic hands
feel so sorry for my hands. Not bleeding.. but Peeling. sayang ya~
still coughin.. and still quite badly at night. Hv to wake up now n then.. to spit out my phelgm. Drat~
Tired. So sorry having to wake up late this morning. I think i made someone angry again. haiz..
It just remind me of the secondary sch days.. when either yiwen or ql start having bad mood.. face turning black. Then again, I am too tired and "speechless" = no voice to ask why or apologise.
I think i shall have an early rest today. I'v not been resting well for e past one week. How can i learn my driving and have my singing audition on this coming thursday if I continue to feel so "unwell". I really hate my Health now. ..
Sorry but i did go to Union yest. U nv would guess who i met last night? Eugene? familiar? . I was watching him dancing. The way he dance.. that smug look on his face. I was pointing to Sharon saying that he looks like Ax. Later, when me and sharon move to a corner, still watchin people dance, He came over. I thought he might be asking for a dance or wat. "huixian? ur name?" I shook my head. "ahah!!!!!!!" "U from SAD right? E interpretor who interviewed me right?". Haha..
E world is just so small. I would say that Singapore is just so small. I never thought i would see Eugene there lo? Ha.. U would nv think that EUGENE can dance and very well indeed.. SALSA siah.. woah~ VERY TAKEN ABACK. In e end., i dance with him.. merengue~ fun~
The other day.. i met my salsa classmate in NTU. Right in front of the library counter. Wow.. so qiao~ I thought he just have "ta zhong" face.. so nth special if we find him bit familiar. okie.. Anyway.. met him yest during class. wanted to ask for his no. but i missed. =( Cos.. i thought next time can jio him go Union Sq mah..
Haiz.. Only me and sharon learning salsa. No fun! And Sharon going on long vacation. Me? left alone in this island.. And no one to accompany go salsa.. So, must befriend more people lo.. =)
One thing i hope to benefit from salsa other than dancing.. is learnin to open up my social circle.. learning to speak up or talk to people from all walks of life.
Just get to know a banker .. hmm. Can get some info from him.. on e job market now.. =D
hao xian shi~