Sunday, July 30, 2006

I went for class

7:10 AM

Very happy that i did. I was e only repeating student i guess.. so i know all e moves tat Zee tryin to execute.. going to old days.. this time..i try to incorporate all e stylin.. inside.. makin sure that I'm doin my copa correctly.. =P

Yes. Am happy that I made the first step. Gonna take body movement.. next Friday.. any takers?

Saturday, July 29, 2006

Everyone's embracing change except

7:58 PM

me. I am undergoing change. Change from a zi-cha waitress cum part-time student.. to a 9-5 or 6 or 7 or 8 or 9 pm job.. Right now.. I am finally doing the real job. Real costing job.. whenever people ask me.. what do i do? Costing. Whatever you studied for accounting 2 .. I am doing it now..

I told brenda and jac last week.. i feel abit sianz.. because i feel that everyone is leading such interesting life.. except me.. I used to feel more in-charge of my life.. not now. When I had to work hard.. i had to work late.. and takin a cab back.. and e next thing I know is sleep, wake up and get ready for job. I know I have to go through this facet of life.. seriously.. other than this.. there is something that is bothering me.. things that I have been putting aside .. and try not thinking about it.. life sure getting more stressful.

its not abt e money. it's about relationships. It's not only abt bgr.. it's everything. I can't seem to put more effort in the things.. that i want.. like friendships.. like the things i pursue.. I am so tired that I seemed to chuck these things aside... I met Hj and KH and ada last fri.. I don't know why.. but I am tired. Tiredness just tears u apart. If you are not working now.. e tiredness is very diff from e tiredness u get from playin too much.. from studyin too much.. And maybe I din put too much effort in projects (uni).. It's time that I grow up.

Okie.. I am just grumbling too much.. maybe things ain't so bad afterall.. It's time I reflect on my life. This moment is gruelling.. I hate to do this.. but i have to.

I'm gonna ve a air-stewardness friend. hah.. =)

I'm gonna stick to my goal.. Is this what i want? really want?

7:45 PM

ok.. this is it. me and Amanda..

7:45 PM

1st yr tutorial mates.. =D

7:44 PM

me and yian.. refusing to take off e black shawl.. kekez.. hiding our assets.. =D

7:43 PM

with Ada.. HJ ask me if he look shuai~ Indeed our dear ADa...

7:43 PM

e econs gang.. lyris look ve Audrey Hepburn look huh.. =P

7:42 PM

taken with e HR gals.. elinn wore really sexy..

7:41 PM

convocation ball @Fullerton.

Wednesday, July 26, 2006

7:28 AM

taken last wk @hotel. Happy Birthday chick!

7:26 AM

lili brown.. =)

7:26 AM

my best fren's convocation.

7:25 AM

huijing .. horrible gal..lose 4 kg.. =(

7:24 AM

my ah bu~ i look quite pale hor..

7:24 AM

my dearies..

7:23 AM

4 Macho manz.. kekez.. my Econs clicks~ I am blushing.. hehz

Sunday, July 23, 2006

had a fun, fitness workout wkend.

7:09 AM

I actually did swim and run both on sat and sun on separate days.. wow.. quite proud of myself. Ran on sat noon cos its actually not very sunny.. and just after my previous entry.. i decided to do sth about it.. after tt i went back office to check my email.. stupid right.. I kinda feel that i should do it .. becos i left early on Friday.

Then, went to meet Xinyi.. who is takin lessons at Jitterbugs near millenia walk.

I went to the Safra club at Bukit Batok.. e newly built one.. its very new.. and on top of the hill i think.. its nice.. I actually like the jacuzzi.. and the shower room. The shower head.. those sprinkle one.. but the its the bigger version. While i was bathing i was thinkin.. of getting one for my bathroom in e future.. very relaxing and shiok.. heez.. indulging myself.. =D

So.. after two days of exercising.. i feel fit. I feel good. I look good. hopefully. Now..i got my momentum le.. just need to keep it going.. I need to be very discipline this week. Gonna drink fruit juice for lunch these few days.. hopin to lose 1 kg or 2.. just in time for my convo ball this sat. It's gonna be held in Fullerton Hotel. Lookin forward? nah.. I have a company fun day in e morning at Sentosa lo.. haiz.. of all days.. choose this day.. =(

I have decided to wear this corset for my convo ball.. hmm.. Hope it's not too revealing.. I mean its revealing la.. but.. heck.. I'm so gonna be thick skin for this once.. (esp when my table only has 1 girl other than me.. ) hmm..

Salsa is not my life?! is it? Esp when one is single..

recently.. everyone ask me to start planning my finance le.. I should. I procrastinate. I shouldn't. I have nth to look forward to.. =( hmm.... i think e problem begins from here..

Friday, July 21, 2006

bored

9:49 PM

is my work boring? hmm.. don't know why. I am feeling very bored. Restless is e word. Feel like doing something but i just nua at home. the past week has been ok.. gg home.. early or just meeting frens.. for dinner..

Did my salsa.. maybe i din c Clarence.. that's why I am bored. kkez.. ok.. enuff. And if I am bored.. i just stuff myself with food.. that is the most unglam thing to do..

On thursday, i went for my last Hip hop lesson.. it was tiring.. I mean it was fun. Hamzah is fun.. very funny.. but i just seemed to focus on myself.. lookin at e mirror.. and wow.. i can actually move like this.. hmm..

Sianz.. because.. of relationship prob.. not mine obviously.. sianz.. because i eat too much.. sianz... because.. my salsa not improving.. sianz.. because i can't do anything to improve my salsa.. sianz because its the end of the mth.. and I'm feelin damn broke again.. sianz.. because i keep talkin abt salary with my colleagues.. sianz. .. because It's just me.

even more sianz.. when i try to blog abt it.. but i can't access to my blog.

Life very boring.. if u just restrict yourself to just plain work .. salsa becomes very sianz.. when you don't improve and u c ur frens doing stunts..tat makes u wow..

"i realise that I'll tremble when i c a ghost." was holding Xinyi so tight.. i thought i saw wrongly.. and yup..i did c wrongly la.. it's still not e right time yet.

I shall go for a swim. gonna apply tons of sunblock on my face.. =(

Friday, July 14, 2006

8:50 PM

u nv know what is OT till u had to work one. I did till 12 am on a Friday night with my contact lens on.. that is e most shit thing.. Cos my boss had to fly on a sat morn.. i need to get ready e material by friday night. By hook or by crook. Anyway.. yup. Actually, me and my colleague, Minli was rushin e stuffs like 5 pm.. we finished ard 930pm.. thinkin that we have done everything.. then she left without me.

My boss discovered tat the figures don't tally.. so I HAD TO TALLY EVERY SINGLE ONE OF THEM. I really feel like cryin last night.. Cause I din't know whr to begin. I was like.. in a total shock.. IN e end, i had to call my colleague.. and thru e phone.. she had to guide me step by step on how do i actually check e figures.. As my eyes were dry.. and my mascara is smudging again.. i felt very uneasy. ANyway.. heck. The fact is that I JUST HAD tO DO IT.

I struggle to tally most of them.. till 12 am. ANd i gave up. To give e details, there were like 32 tables to tally.. But i just need to tally like e 12 of them.. argh~ CALS (formula sheet of the cost of e vehicles).. are difficult..so many no. don't know whr to extract..

My colleague, Kelvin had to leave without me.. boo hoo~ sianz..

I need to have a "stay-back for OT" kit.. like my contact lens holder.. my spec.. my remove make up kit..

Feeling drained after work.. I even forgot that I din have dinner till my buddy reminded me... went back home.. and gorge down like.. whatever i could find in e kitchen..

I am starting to think that I really "behave" like a rat.. always searchin for food. =P

" Don give up, esp in work, dun choose the easy way out. I noe u can make it de. do believe in yourself at all times. " - I needed this encouragement. Thank you so much.

Sunday, July 09, 2006

7:51 AM

my department. Can u spot me?

Saturday, July 08, 2006

happy

9:40 PM

I got a surprised sms yest night right after my salsa @Union. Recently, i have been receiving rather weird but surprising sms.. one in e morn and one at night. LIfe is pretty bored now.. till yest where i got all my "salsa" fervor back.. ended wif a nice slow (rather) last dance with Clarence. YiPPEe!!

haiz.. it's really diff to find some styling lessons.. on wkdays.. i am worried that I might miss the classes if i have to stay back late to do work.. NO sat or sun class.. sianz.. or it clashes with my biz trips.. stupid. I wanna take the Bodytalks classes on WEDNESDAY. eerrr...... =(

History always repeat itself. When I knew that I shouldn't wear strapless bra to dance.. I still did. out of vanity. STupid Vanity. As usual, it keeps slipping off.. and i had to keep pulling after every dance.. or every 2 min.. distracting indeed. I was really quite frightened when Clarence ask me come over.. its the second time he tries to tell me or help me pull my spag straps.. adjust the back of my spag.. (my tube was showing). kekez.. I'm like a baby. kekez.. Well, sometimes i also kena smack or scolding by him.. because of the placing of my hands.. where they should be place in front of my stomach.. *But.. becos i was pullin my bra.. my hand was at my chest.. here goes e smack.. haiz.. * Am i having a crush on Clarence.. kekez.. ???

I like Clarence becos.. he can spins me very well.. and becos.. he knows that I do not know any styling.. and won't expect tt from me.. I promise to learn styling.. and make him proud. heez.. =D

"I'm not someone you think i am. I am through with you. Thank God, you are still alive. I am relieved. Very much." =P

Friday, July 07, 2006

a total kNock Out.

10:25 PM

I'm not talkin about soccer. I'm talking abt my sleep. I woke up in e night.. only to find the room so bright. Hmm.. "Am i workin today?" i was thinking to myself. O..It's sat.. i stood up, switched off the lights.. and back to sleep. I was so tired. I was draggin my feet back from cityhall on Friday night.. after havin dinner with my new colleagues.. We went to Swenson (no choice), almost all the restaurants at Suntec were packed and there were like amazing long q outside them except Swenson. Hmm.. I had a sinful salmon and mushroom baked rice.. follow by a Dessert shared by 3 of us.. and we ordered Fries too.. hmm.. that's ultimate sin. U can imagine how fat I am now.

Anyway. Yup.. I went shoppin with my colleague, Fanna on thursday just before my Hip-hop class at 830pm. We just went MS to shop.. within the first 20 min at this shop (IS at MS) My fren bought 200 bucks worth of clothes.. and I was just trying out gowns for my convo.. This simple white dress.. cost like 79 bucks.. It was nice but not fantastic on me.. maybe i do not ve a fantastic figure so .. yup.. anything won't look 100% nice on me.. so I din buy eventually. Another concern is tat I 'm afraid someone might wear the same thing as me.. hmm..

Anyway.. with limited time.. we went off to M'phosis. Fanna took two retro lookin tops and went in fitting room to try again.. like it and yup.. 2 more clothes in her shoppin bag. Anyway.. judging e way she spend, I told her honestly. "Ur humble salary can't keep up with ur spending dear".. ..But she told me.. she seldom shop.. okie. anyway. She really can afford it la.. so yup.. so be it.. But she is a nice gal.. very humorous.. sometimes.. i do find her very naive.. the way she talks.. But, overall, she makes absolutely good colleague and buddy (sitting next to me).

So.. Then, we went in Pazzion. I saw this white wedge shoes.. I like wedge shoes.. it was of my size!! Unbelievable.. I bought it eventually though they do not ve a new piece.. it definitely cost 3x more than a Charles and Keith shoes.. But I like it.

AFter an hour of impulsive shopping, she drove me to my Hip hop studio at Cantonment Road.

The hip hop.. was a totally ultiamte challenge. I realised tat Hip HOp is really not me.. I don't ve e "omph" when doing such moves.. ha.. Hip hop music ain't my likin too.. What i need is some salsa stylin class..

I am happy becos I'm gonna take one next week.

It's gonna be 2 weeks of challenge for me.. when my mentor will be going on leave for 2 weeks.. He'll be transferring to another department. It's me and Minli.. fighting out. .. =P Jiayou.

salsa @Union.. yeah!!