Friday, March 30, 2007

Goodbye.

11:20 PM

It's my last working day. I don't really feel anything. I got up thinking that it would be my last day.
For the past 3 days, I've been wearing contact lens cause I just bought my contact lens with astig. Was trying out. My poor eyes had to stand my vanity..

That morning, I was rushing to do my last price notice to Indonesia. But, unsuccessful. My boss, Mr. Yamazawa san as usual starts to question me.. about the logic of the calculation. Hrm.. really hate it!
Sometimes, I really want to get it over and done with.. just give the direction, and I will do it properly..
stop making me think so hard! esp its my last day!
Anyway.. I think its just me.. feel like screaming.. but okie la.. in e end, things manage to work out.. I still end up not sending the price notices..

Well.. the most "touching" part is that my big boss, SGM, Mr. Yoshitsugu called me (he was on biz trip in Japan) to send his "wishes".. I was really taken aback. REally touched. I'm not if I'm the only one.. he ever do that. But, I really appreciate him for making such effort to make this long-dist call.

Thank you TMAP. It's been sweet and short 10 months. I have not given my very best but I know that
there certainly more things that I can contribute or learn.
What Mr. Yoshitsugu says during my first appraisal.

"Look beyond the numbers, the explantion. Look at the background. Understand it. Then you'll
be able to look far".

**
Went to Vivo with Yian yesterday. Finally, got to seat at the swing at Pacific coffee club. Yeah! heha..
it's really very shiok.. very comfortable..

We catch up .. on our personal life.. her teachin life.. her cute and adorable students.. really funny.
Esp the korea one.. when Yian try to imitate the way he speaks.. kekez..

**
It's a fresh start for me. I wonder what should I expect.
I'm not going bali or thai. Because I realise that I need to save up .. till my next pay day in Mid-may.

Saturday, March 24, 2007

Endless story

2:19 AM

wanted to put music to my blog.. but I forgot where i save my previous blog's programming lang that Kahhui help me to do.. wanted to copy it and paste music on it.. hmm.. nvm..

Stupid me.. forgot to plan my tuition schedules again.. =( end up watching a jap movie at home instead. Which was good. Finally watch "NaNa".. I've heard about it.. last year.. Wanrong was telling me .. My colleague who is a manga or rather animae fanatic decide to lend me the DVD.

It is really very nice. Touching scenes.. esp the "bathtubs" scenes was.. ooO.. I think.. really really romantic.. and sweet. But the scene of separation at the train station was the part i cried the hardest.. kekez.. Finally heard the song "Endless story" .. (the jap version of Saya Miss you song). I like the Jap version.

Try to download .. and sang along with with my broken Japanese.. cos i only know the hiragana.. but I don't really the meaning though.. kekez..

**
Went to Introbar yesterday with my colleagues.. Was good.. drank two glasses of martinis.. was bit tipsy.. was luckily i got a seat on the train. One of my colleague, You, a Korean-japanese.. was telling us her "story".. it was interesting. We were at a topic of travelling alone.. and two of colleagues went travelling alone before.. One went Europe.. and the other .. i forgot where.. they are garang people..
I had enough of people saying that some places are dangerous.. =( either I have no "idea" of "how unsafe" .. or they are really making me scared.!!

But, I really do want to give it a try. I don't like to persuade people to do things they don't really want to do.. I don't mean work. I mean like personal preference ..like travelling.. like hobbies.. Of course, it would be nice if they can come along.. if not, I don't like to wait for people..

But, of course its hard to find people who can fit in your schedule too..
Now.. its either Bali or Thailand.

Labels: Nana

Monday, March 19, 2007

I must blog about this..

6:47 AM

I want to take a holiday. But, everytime I take short holidays, i'll spend money.. if I pooled this "little amount" of money together, I may go for a decent holiday like Korea or what.. =(

Anyway, this isn't what i wanted to say or blog.
I realise that I am either freaking envious of people who got bf or that I am really "strange".
I asked my fren if she wants to go Bangkok with me, she is the second person who react the same
way when I asked Y. to go taipei with me. My friend replied that she going to ask her "BF" if safe anot.. !!!
After hearing this, I must admit honestly. I don't feel like going le.

I know my Ah ni will never say this to me. She might say .. huh.. not enuff leave or no money, reasons
that I totally understand.

"is it dangerous?".. Ah~ feel like hollering.. "two girls go, not dangerous meh??!!!"
erm.. I have never thought of "dangerous" lo.. I won't go to dangerous place like Afghanistan or what..
It is a damn tourist place lo.. of course there is still a slim chance of being bombed la..
but, aiyoh~

NOw, i really hate myself for not being tall and strong enough to make them more secure.. =(
Haiz.. seriously.. if not for being reluctant to pay the hotel room all by myself.. i seriously want
to go holi myself, I mean alone... I mean its whole new experience manz..

Coming to a freaking 23 years old soon, I have never asked my parents if I can go holi other than my choir trips when I am 12 or 13 years old (poor student). Not that I am rich now.. But, how sad if I need "someone's permission" to go on a holiday.

Talkin to Xinyi.. complaining to her.. suddenly realise that not all people are like me..
no strings attached. I cannot expect people to think like me.. this is not fair.

Hmm.. aspire to be like my colleague, Keiko, who went all the way to Phuket and Krabi by herself..
This is what I called a true heroine.

Sunday, March 18, 2007

Fulfilled dream.

3:11 AM

I finally experience what is it like to fly like a "businessman" ... and my last trip will be this coming thursday.
A bit she bu de.. but I know.. all good things must come to an end. This is how life goes huh..

I went out with my buddy yesterday. It was good. And because I went back to office earlier on.. I din bother to wear pretty also.. cos I only managed to come back singapore on friday night. So damn tired.

Anyway.. we ate all the way. But the most interesting thing was.. my buddy's sister actually comment that
I am very Nua.. keke.. meaning fat la.. and seriously i think so too.. Not only that, I have not exercise
control on what i eat nowadays.. =(
Seeing that Ni is definitely a gym-bunny now.. I think I really need to work it manz..

My buddy "niao" me.. all the way from orchard to my block.. He say he wants to introduce guys to me.. and he scared that person will freak out.. if he sees me like dat!!! what duh!

**
No motivation. ah.. no motivation to impress any guys.. to dress well.. to make up.. to exercise.. to eat properly.. ah.. I think my period is coming. !!!

Sunday, March 11, 2007

Decision making.

7:32 AM

I held back my tears.. but my heart wrenching la.. I knew I had to do it. AFter weeks of sleepless nights, lotsa pressin on my calculator.. lotsa questions.. rhetorical ones.. when you already knew the answer..
I just want someone to make me at ease with my decision. I supposed no one can be as certain.

AFter a few days of peaceful-ness, I am glad that all these seemed to be over though I know that there is more to come..

Restless.

Movies..and eating.. (curbing) cos of someone.. which is kinda good.
I need some motivation to move my "fat" away..

shop quite alot.. big sales on..
I got 4 tops within a wkend.. just to replenish my wardrobe..

Want to try to make myself look more presentable.. more professional. But, I realise that my job doesn't
require me to.. which is kinda weird but fortunate.

If I have to, I have to start burnin a big hole in my pocket.. which eats into my salary.. which is not good.
So, I should be glad tat I can be as nua.. but I wanna to cheer myself up by dressing up..

Ever since i cut my hair short.. I have not been very gu niang. U are supposed to look stylish and got
attitude u know.. but, I know I want to be a "princess" ha..

I wanna be able to wear short skirts.. ( I really like the Topshop skirt.. ) and strut on the street looking
very lady-like or "gorgeous"..

Don't know what got into me.. even ni become very gu niang.. with long dresses and sometimes..
plunging necklines.. woo hoo.. =D
tat got me tempted..

I need abit of patience..

Friday, March 02, 2007

My salsa Picture. One and Only.

10:28 PM

Do you recognise that it is me and Eng Chuan. its at a Party at Casino Royale. Speaking of Salsa.. I haven't do it for weeks.. not like Xinyi.. My legs don't itch la.. just tat u get more intimidated everytime you starts going.. Guess I'm just gonna to give it another miss..

It's not going to be easy for me. I've not been thinking about boys and bgf.. suddenly feel old. Old because I am starting not to feel out of touch with the latest pop songs to sing in Ktv.. I was never into Cute guy .. and I still don't understand why my Ex likes to say.. "o.. u like cute guys right.. hunky ones especially" I would always reply "erh.. hmm.. " the "duh" answer..

I was never into them just simply because they will and never into me lo.. why should i care? I went to KTV with YH yesterday. It was my first time singing on the floor and the first time i sang so lousy.. I blame it on the loud speakers that were directly above our table. Later on, there were a group of guys.. quite young, our age... They sang really good. We left shortly after that to rush down to another pub.

My fren wanted to introduce a guy to me. Okay. No harm. Go lo. He is okie. Humorous. Doesn't look or act like his age.. Maybe because he is still studying. There is nothing wrong with a guy who is studying. Just that, I am biased against them. ha.. Oops I'm sorry.

I'm afraid of next week. But, i know I have to face this in order to move forward.

I know that this rat race gonna be tougher.. money rolling in .. but with sacrifice.