Wednesday, August 25, 2004
No privacy..
writing a blog is like writing a diary ya.. hmm.. for me, it is oso for me to express my feeling, my frustration etc.. I realise tat I keep to myself lately. Though that is so not me, even huimei trying to hint to me today. I don't know why. Everyone seems so busy doing something, schoolwork, tremendous amt of projects, bfs, readings, cca,work etc.. You feel so paiseh or rather bad asking them to listen to you oso. haiz.. Nonetheless, HM said sth that made me think.
H: don't you feel bad when she is the last to know? o.. and the reason is because you don't want her to worry?! That's a lousy reason right?
recently, having alot of negative thoughts. kekez.. but i managed to overcome it periodically. And i think i ve to stop reinforcing them myself. kekez.. struggle struggle.. I think I am sick of myself too *geez*. I'm sure those reading would also be. Well, this phase of life will soon be over.
O ya, btw another thing that cause me to feel sianz. is my classmates. Wah, they super hardworking leh. that day, I was sitting in tutorial, a gal beside me ask me a qn on the graph drawn on the board by our teacher. I was like hmm.. aah.. cause i wasn't paying attention to him. Haven been sleeping well over e past few days due to an irritating mosquito. Later, my fren ask my tutor n she is right at pointing out e mistake that my tutor made. Gosh! after lessons, my friend stay back to ask my tutor on last week tutorial!!!! Wah.. i haven touched my last wk tutorial since a wk ago lor!! feel extremely piss off with myself. Seriously, I find no fault in them being so hardworking la... just that when compared to them? jialat! jialat! *sigh*