Thursday, September 09, 2004
change
"change is e only constant in life". I truly believe in that. I once BX and those helping him that no one can help u if u don 't help urself. I also strongly believe in that. Having going through emotional roller-coaster e whole of 2 mths, i realise that I ve totally "abandon" my school of thought. I ve not practice what i "preach". I mean this is very common to many people also. Often. the things that we do doesn coincide with what we say. This is very contradicting.
I suppose life is contradicting. I once made a decision that I am strongly believe in. yet, in e end i failed. I suppose i din pick myself up after that. I realise that sometimes its not good to pursue what you really want, because u may not like the ending/ result. Then, i realise that it is the journey/ process that is most important. Sometimes, i just like to do whatever that is being fixed or arranged for me. In this way, i can only blame god/ luck / watever.. n not myself. haha..
I am beginning to lose faith. I think i am impatient. I think i ve to do more things not for myself, do more for others. Helping others make u grow as a person. At least i need to wait for the residing pain to go away before i can "treat" it again.
Does this blog sound very negative? kekez.. don worry. I'm not. Sigh. . This is life. Life is beautiful.