Friday, September 24, 2004
Nothing is forever
Today, heard a bad news from my fren. I may not know her very well. But, in my mind, she is someone you admire for her courage. I always have the impression that she is struggling very hard. Struggling very hard to be herself. Struggling to fight for her own happiness. Struggling to make things right when things just start crumplin down. We are always very busy in our studies then. That was in JC. E funny thing is that, i don really know my classmates (2 yrs) very well, but i know my 1st 3 mths classmates who left later better. They r the ones i always think is e "normal" people. Though they left for other JCs, we manage to keep in contact.
Today, as usual, i was on MSN. She asked me? why feeling lost as my nick suggested? I told her e reason. Then, I was told e bad news. She broke up with her ex. I was shocked. But, i knew the impact to her was there. During that toughest period where she struggle so hard, he was there. He was there for her. today, it was the same person who suggested to break up because she is not perfect for him. PERFECT? WHAT'S THAT? CAN YOU EXPLAIN TO ME WHAT DO YOU MEAN?
It's very scary. He can say he love you on one hand. On e other, he can just cast you away like that. In business term, it would be e Principle- Agency problem. You never know when he(agency) change his interest or suddenly decide to change his track.
It must be horrible. I have never been through this. 3 yrs of relationship just gone like that. I don know why, but when i read ur blog, i was overwhelmed with alot of emotions. I know that no matter how hard we try to console you, or give u encouragement. The pain is still there.
The whole blog esp today is really dedicated to you. There is no hard n fast rule to get rid of this heartache. The only thing is to be patient. Slowly, you will recover. Stand up again. You can only stand up if you want to. Dying is not a solution. It will only be too good for him.