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Name: Calista
Age: shh..
Zodiac: Taurus
Location: Prague
Profession: Greedy
A simple yet realistic gal. A salsa fanatic. Realise that Life isn't that rosy afterall. Nothing stays constant. Nothing is forever. Yet, still loving and tReasUring evEry moMent of Living in this Universe. Like thrills and challenges. cRaving for excitement every now and then. A stong believer of self-healing. An independent thinker. A less perfect person like everyone else. Not a perfectionist. Happiness comes from within not from without.

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Monday, October 04, 2004
a whole day
10:17 PM
havin driving earlier in e noon. nth much. my car die once. able to chat with my instructor yet drive quite smoothly. haha. JP u r right. Once u get my instructor to start on e topic on "bettin" wah.. he won stop talking about it. garang man! u ask me play with like few hundreds dollars? i won do it.

Today, my instructor say sth that make me ponder. He was tellin me that 4 yrs ago, a student from CSS (top student in the cohort) died while crossing the road. *he was pointing to me the exact location* He died on e spot w/o seein his achievement - 8 As. It is a pity. I remember him cos i remember praying for him for a few nights. It's his destiny. Fated.

Really, i believe no one knows what happen next. It suddenly occurs to me that y think so far? I may just die tml. why get myself so uptight, so emotional ? however, its not that i din think of what i already ve. But, i guess the devil is too powerful. The anger inside me just overwhelmed me totally.

Before driving, i went to Popular to c c look look. I cant believe that i actually look at Anger Management book. I never thought i need that. I thought i need sth like how to handle sadness, how to manage failure.. etc.. My EQ is getting lower n lower nowadays. Need some help from Kk or Sini since its their GE subject.

Got a nice quote: Faith is a confident assurance of wat is going to happen. It is the evidence of things we cannot yet see. *something like that*

I cannot change what i ve written. or rather how i really feel. This blog doesn mean to hurt anyone. Other than confidin in it, i ve no whr to say how i really feels. Cause ultimately I will e only one who understands it. I think I'm pretty much calm down now. If this gets serious, i guess i be visiting a doc n a dentist soon. My toothache is coming back again.I will nv forget tt achness that i had 2 yrs back. It is super super painful. U can feel ur nerves aching too. It's tt bad. damn it.

Disclaimer: don read if it hurts.

btw i ran leh. 4 Km. wah.. run till ve blister. sianz.. was screamin in bathrm jus now cos e wound hurts. shitz. i know liao. Next time, i angry n if e weather willin to corporate, then, i go run when i am feelin down.