Wednesday, October 19, 2005
Hurray! gotta get back to work!
Been crazy abt Ta Chang Jing - Jewel in e Palace (korea drama series)for the past few days/ a week. Haiz.. I am so addicted. Quote: Wencai say I watch till my eyes pop. Yeah. Almost. So, i decided to finish it once and for all. Now, no more drama series for me. All geared towards exam!
It's an inspiring show. A gal who knows how to cook and heal people. Hmm~ Wah.. hard to find in this real, cold hard world. Been snackin almost all the junk food i can find in e house. My mum.. was bit fed up hah.. ~ cause i finished her peanuts! She bought the re-fill and i finished up in one day. kekz.. I must admit I'm greedy la.. esp when gotta my damn P.
lotsa things on mind recently. Pondering if i should go for the US work n travel thing. If i go, i'll be quite irresponsible. This would mean that i have to stop tuitioning for my kids for a while. If i go, I feel that I've let down someone. Cause we promise to go together for graduation trip. If i go, I'll be able to spend almost 3 mths in US amd that I might not have such opportunity in the future. If I go, will i come back jobless? But, even if i don't go, it does not guarantee that I'll get a job. If i go, i will miss my convocation. If i go, my parents will be disappointed cause they can't attend my convocation? If i don't go, will i regret it? If i don't go, i'll not be able to enjoy with sini they all. So, should i go?
go or not go. The decision is mine. duh~ life so full of contradiction.
I Remembered:
A teacher was asking the kids to carve the names of their "people they don't like/hate" on each pototo and put in in a plastic bag. They have to carry the plastic bag wherever they go. They can put "unlimited" potatos in their plastic bag. But as days past, they kids were getting tired and that they couldn't tolerate with the bad smell that is coming out from the rotten potato/s.
what is the moral of the story?
The more hatred you carry with you. The more tired and weary you are. Why bring along such "potatoes" when they will rot and make yourself miserable?
Hah.. I have long understand this moral of this story. Yet, seriously. To do it, isn't easy. Takes lotsa convincing n persuasion. Evasion from reality. Encouragement from within n external parties. Many a times, you tend to go back to self-pity and start blaming - pointing arrows. Yah.. and also practice also. =D
Sometimes, when you think you are over n done with something but maybe you haven't.
This is the most scary part. U don't know when it will come back n haunt you.
Was just thinking .. in serious thoughts. muaahhahahah...
That story cited from my mum. Was wondering if she is hinting anything? hmm... ~