Tuesday, December 20, 2005
Anger
I realise that u will always vent ur frustration on ppl that are close to you. LIke all human, we tend to take frens/ "close ones" for granted.
I forgot when was e last time, i got so angry and got so piss off with anyone other that my previous relationship. I was simply teething with angerthen.. u can imagine smoke coming out from me..
That was very scary. I realised that it got worst when you are angry with someone whom you are so "close" to.. Especially when he/she makes you disappointed.
And when you get super angry, you just lose control. Trust me.. I've been through it. The feeling is terrible. Especially e aftermath. I was quite upset with myself when I totally lose control of my temper and my EQ just dive down.. I think near to Zero. Now, thinking back, I just wonder where did i gain those " energy" - boiling in me.. ha..
Anyway. I blog about this because recently, i tink i piss someone off. And yup. I got pissed back. ha..
Many times, when we abt to explode or rather lose control of our emotions, I really think e best thing to do is to walk away. I mean getting off sight. No even seeing anyone u "hate". Cos even though you may not confront e person, being physically "there" is torturing to both parties.
So, i really want to say sorry to MY. If i ever have e chance to talk to you again, i would really want to apologise for my behaviour. I'm sorry I just lose control of my emotions. I went overboard. Saying things that are really very mean ha..
Because of this (maybe it left an impact on me), it makes me realise that I'm not capable of loving anyone. When i really love someone, I can just lose my control/ or even basic dignity - saying mean things when I am super super angry. So, to make this world a better place (chey. I am just an individual in this big big world), I think its better for me to stay single and learn to better control my temper.
okie. I am just consoling myself for being single. =)
A: " Did Alfred call you last night?"
B: No.
A: He ask me if i want to go for a xmas party next wk.
B: woah. Ok. How come he din ask me huh? "hmmmm....."
B: tsk tsk.. Maybe..
A: Aiya. No la..
What do you think Alfred is trying to do? Can anyone tell me?
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