Thursday, January 12, 2006
hibernate for 5 hrs
Just came back from a chalet.. woah.. another night with little sleep before headin to school today. But I'm okie as compared to e rest. I managed to catch 2 hrs of sleep.
O.. I managed to talk to Dom via the webcam set up by KH. Thanks babe. ha.. It's my first time using webcam. It's so damn cool. Dom had to wake up at 6 am in morn (US time) to talk to us.. ha.. Technology does wonder ..
Of course. If we can talk face to face, it would be better. But then, he would only be back in 2 yrs time. ha.. I realised that even if u pay me 1 k to be a tai tai.. I would not do it. cos i be so damn bored. ha.. Maybe I'm still young n active la.. ha.
O.. last Wednesday, i went to work.. o.. manz.. haiz.. i encounter Politics la.. hmm.. I was helpin my colleagues washin some utensils.. (as they were eating their lunch), I was asked to do something else. Evelyn was like" U very free ah?" "come n count $ for me!".. hmm.. okie. I tot.. it's okie to help one another .. but then, I was told not to do so.. hmm.. everyone should just do their "own" job aka mind their own business.. hmm. I just think that I am so stupid to be so honest.. causing internal conflicts. I shall keep my damn bloody mouth shut!
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chalet at Aranda Country Club beside Downtown East. We won a 2 day 1 night chalet it from the Carnival held last year. Ha.. as usual, the Farrago always crowd together (JK, Sini, Yiwen, HJ, KH and me). Talking about life.. love life actually. Only HJ e only one to get attached. Funny thing is that she is e only one who has got a "big Problem" now..
It's e first time I see JK being frank abt his past relationship. ha.. We had so much in common. Our mindset. OUr setbacks. Our learning n healing process. We come to a conclusion too.. "In love, we must learn to be CRUEL. WE must learn to be cruel in order to learn to be kind. (excerpt by Sini). How true. Cruelty forces us to learn from reality. To pick oneself up. To learn to be strong. Cause other than yourself. No one can save u.
I really hate people who try to be tactful when it comes to breaking up. No matter how tactful you put it across, the impact is e same.
Excerpt by JK " 5 years down e road, the person(hurt) will be thankful for his/her cruelty" It took me 1 year plus to realise this. ha.. actually around 1 year la. I am so thankful. (e way i put it..like very insincere hor.. but it comes from the bottom of my heart).
It's not good to feel guilty abt something la. I've already discuss this topic before. I've felt guilty before. And really it haunts u. It makes u feel uneasy. No one is perfect. Time is such as powerful tool that it will just washes everything, if not,most of things away. I would like to think that I have selective memory. I will choose to remember the things i want to remember, and forget those that I want to forget. Of course, I won't ever forget my painful lessons..
Let's just hope that 2006 will turns out be joyful for all my DEAREST: ANYTHINGALS, FARRAGOES, my SWEETEST BUDDY, ECONS GAN, YEP mates, friends and most importantly to MY WONDERFUL FAMILY.
"now u studyin, workin, dancin n givin tuition. can take it anot? beta watch ur health loh" - wif such sweet message. What else can i ask for? =D