Thursday, February 23, 2006
did my "thang"
went salsa w/o sharon.. =( i dress nicely today.. haha.. winnie they all praise me.... this would mean that normally i dress very lousy la.. which is quite true... if u c me wear shorts... that is very common... i like to wear shorts with very lose t-shirts.. like gg beach like tat... very casual..
I think.. is like dat la.. i like to dress down. so when i dress up... ppl will like "woah..u going out ah?".. I dress according to my mood and of course.. if time permits.. I like to go to work.. wearing something comfortable.. (not sexy tees.. or spag.. or mini skirts.. "I don't like to wear jeans also.. unless i have presentation... or.. i got nth to wear.. or when I'm going to a cold place..
I dance with Afian today. Talking about him..i realise he isn't as cute as i thought he is.. U see.. my old habit comes again.. "hiam-ing" comes again..
I got my phone on Monday right. On Tuesday, we were sms-ing each other.. i think got 10+ sms la.. He sms me first.. askin abt salsa.. then later.. we carry on from there.. ha.. but towards e end... i think we ran out of things to say.. His msg getting shorter also.. I tot.. we were tired.. i needa sleep too.. so we ended..
I tot.. he is very young.. he really look like he is 20 and below.. But he is 23. He just finished studying from abroad and waiting to go NS. I was really thrilled when we were exchanging sms.. The old feeling just came back. The excitement..that i got from waiting his sms. .. But, i just warned myself.. not to get overboard la..
Today.. i went salsa.. I sms him.. askin him if he is coming.. and he said he was also on his way there too.. He reached there later than me. i did 2 dances with him.. and I got really "frightened". I was thinkin Oh-shitz.. I mean.. I think he is cute.. but i seriously don't like guys to keep paying attention on me.. I mean.. i don't like guys to keep askin me to dance.. Then.. I would feel that.. c'mon.. you sure can get somebody else to dance with you right? Maybe I don't like to be a "committed" partner.. I am afraid. I get very turn off.. That is e feeling I got while doing e second dance with Afian. Maybe.. I am thinking too much.. I don't know what is holding me back. I should be very happy.. that I got to dance with him right? But, i was only all right.
Kumaran was laughin at me lo.. He keep grinning.. He must be thinking.. woah.. NOT bad huh.. got a guy who keep dancing with you.. It's okie if I dance with Kumaran again n again.. because we are classmates. and we need to practise.. But of course..i will always look for other salsaras to dance with.. I need to improve my salsa la..
What's wrong with me? I said i would ask Winnie for Kenneth No.. NOw, I am thinkin twice. It's okie.. if i got "rejected".. I am only afraid that i would carry e "game" too far.. and I would find e game either boring or scary..
This is my Xperience with guys.. Thrilled, Seekin fun.. Paranoid.. getting scared.. more scared.. chickened out.. =(
Going MOS (Ministry of Sound) tml.. should i go Union first? very gianz..