Thursday, February 16, 2006
gIrls nIght out. All's well.. all's fine..
Chock once said sth to us during the past pri gathering we had last year. He said "Friends are important. If you fail to meet up, you may just miss this one opportunity to be with that person." He said this and he sincerely means it when he lost one of his fren. I've never and I hope I'll never ever have that situation in my life. In our busy lifestyle, having to turn up for just one simple dinner may seem so simple (duh) and it may seem so difficult. So difficult to find a slot in our busy schedule. I never like to miss any dinner / lunch/ gathering. I try to go if i could. U may say that because I'm so free, there's no reason not to go. Sometimes, i just don't like "missing out" e stuffs/ gossips etc.
I'm gonna began to love "mantra" - do you call it this way? Love complicated. Complicated love. suddenly, this just went thru my head. It's hard to believe in "platonic friendship" btw 2 genders. Now, it's even harder to believe in "platonic friendship" btw the same gender. Personal preferences. No man is an island. How true is that.
I'm starting to believe that I'm leading a "no-goal" life. My goal is to make as much $ so that I can go for my graduation trip. I don't act or behave like a student. A tertiary student. I don't try to score as much As .. My motivation for FYP is not to let my fren down. Hoping that I will get an A. However, it is not a must in my imaginary "goal list". I guess I'll be quite lost w/o my FYP , when i graduate and when i come back from Korea. Suddenly, that "item" would be strike off.. I'm left with my pathetic cert. Tryin to look for a job.
Today. I just finished my Cultural Intelligience main presentation. It was good. Though I'm not overseas, I'm proud to say that I got to interact with exchange students from Norway, in particular, and have a taste of cross-cultural interactions. It's not as simple as I thought. With my limited vocabulary and poor English, I have to try to talk as much. Feeling a bit reserved. Something that I always wanted to get rid off. But I would say that I think "Jostein" - from Norway is really Cute. I hope i can post his pic. If i managed to get one.. ha.. =P
Prof Ng - my prof for GE - started a topic on STereotypes today. We also talk about different cultures.. e Asian vs the US. It all became clear to me. The feelings that I experienced in JC. The loneliness I felt there. The isolation I got. How I began to "reject" e place.. and i sink into "mild depression" now n then when my emotions began to get control of me.. Today, my Prof is just listing out e "terms" or "names" to those that I felt during those pathetic but challenging times. I started learning about "individualistic" when i was just 17. At that time, I never heard of such words but somehow.. I knew that word. I knew that my friends are very much egoistic. Although i said that i have learnt to be more independent, deep down, I am very much a traditional girl. A typical asian gal living in a collectivisic society/ culture. This would mean that you do not do things for yourself, you do things (not ur own preferences) because the society/ family/ e group that you belongs to, wants you to do it this way. Woah. Is it too chim.. I think this is getting more n more interesting. I think if I've got some spare time, I do need to do some reading.. to update my knowledge on psychology. or is it sociology? hmm.. maybe bren or jac may teach me a thing or two? But, i don't want "deviation theory" k..