Friday, February 24, 2006
headache over $$
Today is my last day of work? my zi cha part-time job.. I told ya right. Change of management.. I din't know that I will go thru this "change of management" thing.. I thought I will only experience this.. when I really start my perm. job next time.. Well.. it's really bit scary. Because.. there is alot of speculation around.. and e new boss wouldn't say anything.. everything is left hangin in e air.. who stays.. who leave? I don't like this feeling. Uncertainty~ It feels worse.. when you are tryin very hard to earn $ .. and things like dat.. just disrupt your plans..
I can only blame myself.. for spending e 900 i saved up.. last year.. haiz.. I can't believe it.. but both my account left.. very pathetic amt.. i couldn't even draw money out of it.. It's scary. Imagining.. going out... with 2 bucks in ur wallet. And you almost couldn't draw anything.. from e atm machine. Wah.. I was thinking.. "cannot be.. unbelievable.. I have to take a bus back home because i don't have money to go Union at all!"
As a student, I am considered.. rather better off in terms of my allowance.. though I never ask how much is my friend's allowance. Maybe 300? Okie. I do earn more than that.. But, I can never save up.
This time I really learn a good lesson. It's always better to save up for rainy days. U never know.. when your boss suddenly feel like closing shop.. and you are asked to leave. Now, when I am still considered young, I have e ability to look for other jobs.. But, if I am old.. useless.. e feeling i get now.. is 100X worst.
How how.. aiya.. very lazy to look for other jobs.. I can only tell myself that it's a blessing in disguise. Finally, i can take a break.. I should rest right? I am a workoholic.. From e starting of last year nov to now. ... whenever I'm free.. i will just work.. and get paid.. for just 20 (better than none).
Haiz.. don't wanna to think abt it.. let me escape from reality..
Was talking to this part-timer uncle .. He just came 2 weeks ago.. He was askin if I got bf? i said no. I said no time. Not interested also. He then say.. "good." He started saying.. this philosophy of his " everyone is sure to "die" at some guy/ gal's hand". He meant that be it guys or gals.. just beware of them.. esp. guys.. who are just "BASTARDS" He even admit himself. I think he kena cheated b4.. and he got cheated very badly.. financially.. so that was just his advice. I replied " okie. I know. I will never get cheated" But, then, to think again. Love is very foolish. Sometimes.. you will do anything and everything for that person. Even if it costs you everything.
How true. It' s not e first advice i got from him. I got such advice from elsewhere also. U can't help but believe that it is very true.
"If you really have to give, you can only give it to this man. That is your dad." This person will never harm you. I'm not saying that all dads are so good. But my dad is. Especially to me.
If only I am responsible for my own self.. I think I wouldn't feel disappointed .. e need to study very hard.. .. to earn more money.. But, then, this is e reality. I can't change that fact.
I am long-winded. Suddenly, this money issue sets me thinking.. I think I should do something abt it.. instead of sighin away~