Saturday, March 18, 2006
not born with a silver spoon
tt is discouraging =( ha.. I just got a terrible phone call just now. From my tuitee who decided to terminate me.. due to his poor performance in his recent test.
I am now thinking whether did i give it my 100%. seriously, i would admit that everytime i teach him.. I am tired. I am always rushin from work. Then, again.. i think i did my stuffs. I know what he is weak in. I know what he is lacking. Maybe I'm not fierce. I would think that maybe he got too many stuffs like me.. he has go basketball training.. etc.. That would probably spur him to study harder. I remember, last time.. no one motivate me.. just tat i am competitive myself.. that is e inner drive. Right now, I have no drive. A bit la. maybe instead of concentrating on them.. i need to concentrate on myself.. need to score a big A for my public finance. ha. .. all right I shall make it a reality. Since it is really tough.. among all e econs module that I've took.
eh.. think i spent like 12 + 5 + 8 + 15 = 40 on salsa today. I must cut down. I must be thrifty for this coming months.. I just spent on my I3 lessons. 80 bucks.. haiz..
Yesterday, i went I3 lessons.. was fun.. e guys had a hard time.. doing those moves.. awkward n unnatural moves.. I met this netherland guy.. quite cute. ha.. Gary suffer e most setbacks.. I din understand those feelings till i picked up e phone call just now. ha.. u'll be thinking..hmm.. i did my stuffs. yet still like dat.. anyway. as for my tuitee i just hope e best for him.. I don't like to threaten people.. but to come to think of it.. i often threaten my sec 4 student. ha.. I seriously think .. I can't teach primary school. so, don't expect me to become a pri sch teacher.
coming back. I discovered something new again. Zee n Nicole were once an item. argh~ Nicole is so much older.. and Nicole is a lawyer.. can you believe it? ah-lian look alike.. but she is a lawyer.
u can never judge a book by its cover. how true.. this guy i met last wk and dance at Hard rock.. is a medicine student. c'mon.. he don't look like lo.. we were giggling away.. cos i could never catch his moves.. ha.. Xinyi was like.. he is a good catch~ yeah. I agree.. ** clap clap**. but, now I am more distraught with my loss of income. It will take some time getting used to.. anyway good la.. if i am starting work.. I also can't give tuition. kekez.. I am just consoling myself.
talkin abt gary. I don't know how to console him.. but he keep emphasizing that he is demoralised. yeah. Zee was like.. ur movement is crap.. u will hurt girls.. u must go back to basic 2. from I 2 to B2. well well.. zee is very blunt. That is why many people don't like his attitude. I would think that.. gary learns it but never practice it.. E most important thing i learn from salsa after knowing Eugene is that.. don't be afraid to dance. to ask someone to dance. From a beg 2, i must say that all e people who dance with me are my "teachers". I appreciate that. There was never once i nv ask someone to dance with me.. i would think gals ve e advantage la.. guys would feel weird to reject a gal although occasionally i dance like crap. Well.. don't dance with me again lo.. Then, again.. everyone starts from scratch.. so everyone has got their "opportunity" of being a beginner.. so ya.. u must learn to dance with e beginner as well as e pros .. e same thing applies to gals.. if you are good, you are good and people will know and ask you for a dance. For me, I am no good. so i often have to ask people for a dance. * not tt people don't ask me for a dance*. This learnin curve is definitely fun~ i get to dance with Clarence again (for info, i initiated by inviting Clarence for a dance for our first dance) =D