Saturday, September 16, 2006
Singapore Dreaming.
I cried. Huijing was giving tissue to me.. while Ada was about to leave.. wipe away my tears..
It's a good movie. It's a movie i'll recommend to all HDB dwellers.. like me... About a normal family.. 2 parents and 2 children.. growing older.. Huijing keep askin me why i cry. I said.. I just reflect and find the movie similar to my background. Esp when the son.. wanted to burn the "most" ex condo for his dad.. why have a grand funeral when you do not take care of him when he is alive....
I mean.. with all my activities lining up for me each day.. Sometimes.. i don't say a single sentence to my mum... not that I have something against her.. but we just miss the chance to talk to each other..
That is why i treasure my Sunday breakfast.. it's a time.. i can talk to my parents.. at least face to face.. and not rushing to anywhere.. i hate it when I have to put my tuition on a Sunday morning..
Esp when now.. I am force to give tuition..but somehow.. it's an extra income for me..
How difficult to find a perfect man.. when i have to feed my family.. though i'm not a sole breadwinner in e family. How difficult to get married and stuffs.. when I have so many things that I want to experience in life.. How am to get married.. when i can't imagine all my finances being tied down to "assets" that I will need..
I always say i love my parents.. but yet, I think they really do so much more for me.. I am grateful but I don't show it out.. Do they actually know? I think i can do much more for them..
haiz.. think my brother has got some psychological problems.. I think he felt unloved. I think he felt that my parents love and dote me more.. ( i agree). I think he knows that my parents are disappointed with him.. No one is on his side.. Despite all his flaws.. I still love him.. How am suppose to show that I care? Hmm.. I will have to try harder..
A: I like guys who has got "Drive"..
B: U do? Since when? Are you sure?
A: eh.. yup. let me think.. yes, I'm sure.
A: U think salsa guys have got drive?
B: of course not.
B: If a guy has got drive, he wouldn't go salsa that often.. he would spend more time doing something more fruitful and productive.
A: That's true.
A: how about girls? Girls who go that don't have drive?
B: It depends.. But generally so.
A: That's sad.. (hurts to think that you yourself lack the drive.. )
I really don't like to say that I'll do things and end up not doing it.. hate it when i say that I'll go for a run and I end up not doing it.
So.. finally. I've decided.. I won't say it first.. Let me register and make sure I'll do it this time round. It takes alot more determination to really achieve it.. If I succeed.. all thanks goes to Lee Huijing and ADrian .. Nothing is impossible.. I hope to prove it..