Saturday, August 30, 2008
Its another wkend working
O yes.. not been working on sat. It is definitely tiring.. though i didn scream it out loud. but you can see the look on my face.. e worse is when i decided to turn up for the KTV on friday.. we sang till 1 am..
I must admit that I am still scared. Though i wish sini is there. But, glad that yian willing to accompany me.. though she pretty deep in thoughts all the time.. Suddenly, he decided not to go for the ktv.. hmm.. he avoiding me? cannot me.. who am I to make him scared? ha.. think too much le la.. well.. I realised that everytime i go with "yang' gang.. I am always refer to his ex.. seemed like I don't ve an identity of my own hor.. hmm. .it's time to established my own identity le.. =P in fact, i recognise that I don't belong to their group.. not their sec frens.. but just by the name of "yang's ex" PATHETIC..
does that mean i should just not go for the outings? but they are really funny people.. able to make me laugh de.. and i really enjoy guys company i realise.. somehow i feel at ease... not that we must be romantically link.. but just that I don't feel like I have talk about some stuffs i am just not able to crap about..
okie.. me and my complaints! I really hope this 3 challenging days will be over soon! and I know my period is gonna explode any moment! I make a promise to myself.. and yes. I will keep it.
In fact, I am amazed that I am able to keep something private. at least for awhile..
but this is really not good.. not good for heart or soul..
i need work it out!
=)
41 days to go..